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Friday, November 27, 2009

things changed sooooo fast .......

sooo many things on mind now .

starting to give my current job up ,

honestly , missing that lil princess treatment days .

on a week probation with him and then

we really gotta have the final say for this relationship .

no matter to cont on or to let it go ,

we really gotta accept the fact already .

aint really close with anybody else anymore ,

really upset about it .

all busy with their own situation .

oh man , really wish that nothing could have changed .

so confuse still , i donno why . hmm , sorry that im still am .

nah , no mood to blog .

jus miss the happy us .

love you still .

blublu , stay with me forever no matter what .

Sunday, November 8, 2009

too many things to blog .

jus wanna say that will be back to frequent blogging soon .
here's pic to replace lost words .

Monday, October 19, 2009

yesterday dinner was absolutely a delightful one . Serious ! (pics to be updated soon)
After that we went to catch 'the hurt locker' , damn freaking nice , really seriously as what those ppl commented on the poster itself . Loves !
Anyway , hope today wont be a bad day in overall .
Cant wait for fri night's bbq and stayover !
Thurs , am having my practical exams !
Totally stressed out !

Sunday, October 18, 2009

im sooooo happy yesterday .
It was our 4th month anniversary .
And he asked me over for dinner . i had crabs for dinner together with his mum&bro , prepared&cooked by him ! Amazing ! =) we laughed and joked sooo much yesterday , shall not embarrass him here tho i really feel like sharing cos it's sooo freaking funny ! We had icecream too . Then he sent me home .
Today , he's gonna bring me out for dinner . Cant wait ! -to be continued ....

Saturday, October 10, 2009

jus wanna post about my grandma .
she told me she might wanna sell away
the current house and get a smaller place .
but she asked me the weirdest question of all ;
'if she were to move , would i stay with her too .'
omg , soooo silly of her .
i've already made my decision to stay with her forever !

our 4th month anniversary coming soon , this coming sun .
wish all goes well . things do looks like it's improving tho .
hope that it's better and will stay accelerating up .

11days more ! exams ....

now at E's place for revision .
tomorrow off , he seems like wanna meet me .
feels weird , cos it's like outta the blue moon .
esp for mon and thurs !
tues wed fri and sat , we sure meeting up .
but for tomorrow and thurs , he wanna meet me too .
should i be that happy ?
anyway , wed not beaching , meeting E for revision again .
then meet him at 6+ .

later , gotta work at 4.30pm !
will be going over early cos E have a class later at 4 .
i don mind tho . janah taking the first shift
so can go over see her for awhile .

nothing to post already . i have , just dowan to .
tata~

Saturday, October 3, 2009

thur night stayed over after finishing the overbearing 55booklets correction ,

he came all the way to my place , thanks baby .

ytd night chalet , Reave's advance 21st bday celebration .

beach today .

soooo hilarious . we're quarreling everyday now .

nothing to talk to me about bcos we see each other everyday right .

then i must thank that ya holis are over today .

hope not to see you til wed actually , thanks fro clearing my thought .

sort of me = me , you = you now uh ,

really making me feel like laughing and crying at the same time .

oh my , i really hate and love him now .

really torturing .

wish taht i could really turn back time so as things would be sooooo freaking better now .

i love you la , stinko .

but you are really irritaing me at times .

=') i feel like wanting to cry and laugh at the same time , seriously .

argh !

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

thinking about the quarrels we had , it sucks to still miss you . You win , asses manoocho ! Currently working full at thomson , totally stress about sales target , unlike wanlin , at her paradise , not much stress and still gets commission and cpf based pay . Oh my ! Im tired , as usual , really goodluck to me for sales today . Hoping that we are still meeting today after my work to chill at starbucks together .

Sunday, September 27, 2009

oh my , i went cuckoo again . But this time it's for goodness sake . Totally speaked up for myself . Now we're doing good , i really hope so . Got my mrkev back , am ready to rock&roll . Hahs . Thanks baby , for listening me out , let's move on for more happy days together ! Hugs*

Currently at work , sales totally cant make it today . For fuck sake , i hate working at lido , totally stressed up . New location tho same area but stress !

Friday, September 25, 2009

jus got back to his place after picking him up .
showered and prepare to sleep fro biatching tomorrow .

had din tai fung with his mum & bro for dinner .
ordered dan2 mian , 20pcs of xiao long bao , 2 steamed pork bun ,
pork ribs soup noodle , crispy fried prawn pancake , 2ice red dates longan drink .
soooo filling , thanks aunty !! =]

anyway , i jus wanted to blog that i helped
a tiny frail old lady in the train to the door ,
held her feeble soft saggy hands and arms ,
sooo proud of myself !
but main point here is that i couldnt help
but wondered about
how kind would the world be
when it's my turn to aged .

hmm , sunday gonna wrok at f1rocksSG ! 5pm-11pm . cant wait !
tho it's jus selln tees but at least im there , somehow . hahs !
next tues maybe accompanying eve on her photoshoot ,
not confirm yet tho .
fri going to the briefing on job opportunities for IR in the afternoon ,
hope baby wants to go with me .

gtg . to be updated , again , soon !

Thursday, September 24, 2009

oh , so happy . He didnt say no . 9+hrs more ! Cant wait ! Currently at work , thomson plaza! , 5sets to sell before shift end , target by boss , 3.5sets more . I can do it ! Later going to his place straight after work to do revision first , will be borrowing his bro's books . Haiyo . I will really try very very hard to study my best and get this freaking o over and done with . Gonna work less and study more often ! Around 30days more . Waiting for qun to study together too . But wanna spend his last week of holis with him first ! Baby , please don pressurize me for ya this last week of holis ok !

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

am leaving my cousies's place soon .
he called and talked for awhile ,
a normal short chat .
but then he asked what time am i leaving ,
happy that he text me even we said goodnight .
so will call him when i get home .

tomorrow working 2nd half ,
gonna have enough sleep
then get up and study before going to work .

i want a lovely relationship this time .
really gonna cherish and treasure the last week of his holis !
after his holis , will seriously be serious about revising .
i love him . really . dowanna hurt him nor hurt myself too .
will take things slowly from now on .
not gonna be so sensitive .
will be changing my attitude and stubbornness too , i try !
will not be sticking to him so often too .
dowanna meet him sooo often too ,
studies is really more important (for him esp).
if we are meant to be , we are meant to be .

time to relax and take things as it is .

but still love him all the same !

quarreled last night .
stupid 5mins wasted .
no comments .
if we were to quarrel tonight and tomorrow night ,
aint seeing him til mon , i don care .
hope all goes well tonight .

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

jus finish my shift ,
am meeting my colleague janah
together with her 2cousies .
jason joining me too ! so happy .
maybe catching movie too .
thanks jason for accompanying me !
text mrkev about it ,
bet he's angry now after readong my text ,
sure tell me the same old thing if he were here ;
'why cant yougo home straight and do revision one uh ?
you cant stay home one right ? not for even once right ?'
but tomorrow is my off day man !
i hope he's ok with me going out today .

tomorrow gonna head over to my cous place to study together .
asked my sis to come over for tomorrow
and she tells me that my mum is off for the whole week ,
so i ask her whether she wants to come over my cous place first
then we head home for dinner with my parents together in the evening .
gonna make time for my mum this whole week ! =]

oooh , so stress !
i miss him but there,s nothing to be there
for me to look froward to
except more things bothering me .
am gonna pick him on fri night , no matter what ,
supported by jason and his own bro ! muahahhas !
i seriously think there's nothing wrong in picking him up
so def gonna do it ! hahs .

ok , gtg to head over to serangoon first to meet jason

cos im pretty early as usual nowadays .

then meeting janah at orchard .

am craving for icecream !

misses*18.06

Monday, September 21, 2009

just got home from work ! Called him immediately . I really miss him , i donno why . And he jus laugh . I think im unsure of his feelings towards me again , maybe because of the great distance now and we could only afford a 5mins call each night . I feel bad that im confuse again but i really cant help it . I do like him alot alot but i donno , being paranoid and sensitive now . Really hate to see couples this days , it jus comes to me like that . Tomorrow working first half , then meeting janah ! I miss sel too .

Sunday, September 20, 2009

currently at work , cine , til around 8.30pm , missing my boy . Wishes that time would pass even faster . Hope sales at least a 200 today ! So bored and warm ! Really thinkin of him most of the time . Whenever im hungry , would like to ask if he is hungry too and wanna eat tgt . Whenever im thirsty , wanna ask him if he wanna drink anything . Whenever wherever whatever im doing , he's on my mind . Really wonders if he do too .

wed night , he stayed over my place .

and accompanied me all the way to lc for work til 6.15pm
and left for dinner at home , rest , change
then come over and pick me when im done at 10+ pm .
soooo nice of him . had so much fun together .

thur night , stayed over his place all the way til sat night .

thur after work , he insisted of me to eat something
so we had fried oyster omelette then head to his place .

fri , our 3rd month anniversary ,
he accompanied me to work again for first half .
he surprised me with my fav melon ice cream !!
not really a surprise tho but was satisfied with it .

but pissed me off for the rest of the day ,
at the end of the day ,
tired due to not enough rest ,
i fired off my tolerance .
but was feeling ok after a nap while he send meng and nick home .

sat was a horrible day ,
supposingly to be our last whole day together
before he flys off for shanghai ,
ruined by me unknowingly .
sucks , feeling bad and everything , totally feeling like shit .

really sorry , my boy . please do forgive me .
wont do it again , really , seriously !
*because i really would forgive you for the many a times you pissed me off just for you to forgive me this time .

anyway , we compromised and finally managed to get some sleep .
got up at 4.30am , prepared and asked for many kisses from him .
sent him to the plane with his parents&bro .
sooo nice of his friend daniel&hung ee ,
sent me back after accompanyin me binge eating in that wee early hr .

oooh , it's only 1st day that he's aint around
but i really really kept thinking of him .

but it's ok , am looking forward for tomorrow's work ,
cine , full shift , 11.30am-10.30pm .
as i can use wireless the whole day !!
hoping that eve would spend time with me tomorrow too .
will bring my booklets and revision to do tomorrow .
after tomorrow , i have almost 3days+ left to spend .

have no plans for the rest of the week ,
hard to even pass a day now .
glad that at least he jus called to talk ,
cos i text him ; i really hope to hear ya voice .
will be calling him immediately after work , after reaching home .

i wish that we could have more time to talk things out before you flew , seriously .
i miss you , my boy .

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

only ya happiness .
striving forward .
no one sees .
no one understand .
stand alone in the end .

now i know the truth .
truth hurts , yes i know .
damn badly .
i understand , i get it i got it .
no one is perfect
but im not even near being normal .
im sorry that you gotta see this category .

sorry .

cried alot tho .

Monday, September 14, 2009

currently at work . not meeting mrkev today .
compromising done . get it got it .
Downloaded joyeye lite to my hp ,
now my hp works like a lomo cam !
Totally cool !
Will be meeting wanlin !
Later we take pics together k ?!
But first gotta go visit shirley
like what i've promised for so long .
Aint cancelling it again no matter what !
Looking forward for tomorrow .
Goodluck for ya presentation , my boy !

has the passion really gone down the drain ? That's all that is in my head . I really miss those first few weeks . Thinking about it makes me cry . Yes , things change and i gotta accept it . But i want my doting kev back . Mrkev , i know you'll soon see this post . Correct me if i've said anything wrong or perhaps it's all true to skin of my buttcheeks ? Can we not lose the compromising spirit ? I'm sorry for all that you dislike or even hate about me . I'm changing , for you . Or can you try ask yourself , are you taking more than giving in the first place that maybe lead to this emo post ?

jus got home , sent by him , jus finish a movie at vivo ; 'gamer' . Yup , he saw my messy room again . I think he's disgusted . F thanks to myself . Maybe that's why he dowanna stay over at my place . All the excitement that was there in the first place , subsided right before my eyes . Last night had a huge quarrel . A really horrid one . And the prob totally lies with me . Tried to change and to show and prove him , yet another insult thrown in my face . Tomorrow will be working first half , possibility of him meeting me is almost close to zero as he have his presentation on wed . And wef im not sure whether we're seeing each other , gotta accompany rve .

Sunday, September 13, 2009

back from dinner

urging for girls day out at the beach !

anyway , cant wait for tomorrow !

im feeling left out
by my bf .
thankyou !

anyway , cant wait for tomorrow .
beach my fringe ppl !

will be working tues first half , thurs full & fri first half .

im so dead .
my blog is gonna be dead for a few days after this post .

fri night and sat , here i come !

Friday, September 11, 2009

am at mrkev place for the night , as usual ,

as tomorrow is

BBBBEEEEEiAAAACCcCCCtHHHhHIIIiINNnNGGgG day .

jus had 2slices of lovely fruit cake ,

it's his Daddy's bday !

tomorrow gotta be serious in my games man !

need to get rid my fats already !

i think im getting super self conscience nowadays .

tomorrow gotta be up by 9am ,

meeting my craze peeps at 10 .

will be leaving with mrkev tomorrow around 4.30pm ,

meeting wanlin for a long chat over dinner !

sun , meeting my old friend from mdis

she asked if i would like to study together ,

sooooo nice of her ,

she's making her way down to my convenience !

thanks , rish babe !

hopefully , i would like to see him on sun too .

sent my schedule in jus now .

mon 14th off (beach with mrkev&daniel)

tue 15th first half

wed 16th off (meeting Eve as promised)

thu 17th first half

fri 18th first half (wish to take off as it's our 3rd month but refer to sun20th)

sat 19th off (hit the beach , bitches !)

sun 20th off (he's off to Shanghai T.T)

added in the text ; 'mon 21st full'

hope my supervisor is ok with it .

am not happy now , he's asleep while blogging ,

thinking about him flying off soon ,

tho it's less than a week ,

gonna whoop my ass by working mainly full shifts for that week !

been feeling sensitive since yesterday ,

my boy is tortured by me ,

sorry !

i really cant help it .

i know ya jus joking with me but i flared and cried .

sorry , i passed the flu to you too .

anyway , my fringe is trimmed by a professional hair stylist (granted yesterday only) .

will upload pic and reveal the truth on the next upcoming post .

gonna edit my playlist now .

am sleeping soon .

may i sleep in peace .

without nightmares .

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

hmm , jus came back from chilling at west coast mac ,
with kev&his bro , had mcflurry connerto & apple pie !
had home-cooked food at his place for dinner ,
really really love them ! then apple and prunes !
hmm , tomorrow going swimming once again , finally !!

fri night , we've planned a stayover , again !
this time at Costa Sands resort ,
where we always sneak in to shower after beaching every single time !
then sat beacing , as per norm !

ah.... i miss my Marshmallow Sel !!!!
hope to see you on thurs ,
no matter what , i will meet you !

cant wait for 18th & 28th of Sept !*

Sunday, August 30, 2009

i miss you , my boy ! (♥)

(i know even though we're meeting tomorrow ,
all the way til thurs continuosly !)

anyway ,
got suspended from work for a week ,
gonna treat it as a week to rest !! =]
as it's his holis already , too .

thanks baby ,
for being there for me by
talking on the phone with me jus now
while i cry my frustrations out !

thanks for the fried rice you cooked for my lunch on thurs
and accompany me til i finished work too .

thank you for everything , in short .
(if not it's gonna be hell of a naggy me
to finish thanking you
for all the thank you i wanna say)

lastly , thanks for breaking the ice by asking to camwhore !

AHHHHHH !!
talking about the golden rule ,
he's playing around the rule man ,
totally killing me !
neimind ! sure i'll get my chances !

for now , jus wanna blog all the latest pics !

tomorrow going beaching with him and his poly friends !
soooo coooooollll ! hanging out with him and his close friends ! =]
happy .

and we agreed each other with not touching clubbing at all ! =]
appreciated ! *

wed beaching again ! i dont care !

cant wait to see you , asses manoocho !

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

been working most of my days away ,
trying to cover my pay that i've advanced for my stupid phone bill !
already recontract my line to unlimited sms for all provider ,
hopefully it helps lessen my stress&worries on it .
lotsa pics and post to blog about . but im literally wireless !
how the hell im gonna save up for a notebook ?!

beaching as usual on wed and sat ,
but not today , most of 'em are not free .
i want to actually , or at least to the pool . but the bloody lazy weather !
anyway , sooo many days passed so fast that i lost count of me
not using the net , shopping and simply have a goodnight rest .

life is involving around work , mrkevin and beach only .
happy but tired everyday , look at my happysleepyface !
hhahahs .

waiting for him to break the golden rule
then i'll definitely take my chance to ease my urge of shopping !!!!
muahahahhahahahahas ! im waiting patiently !

last night had supper with Nick and my BELOVED kevin at bukit timah .
left his place at 10pm to pick Nick up from $lakeside first .
the skills of my boyfriends' driving is better than i expect
but as what he always claim , it's as if he is driving a F1 car .
finally we got to bukit timah before we knew it ,
ordered a cheese and a butter naan,while Nick ordered 2 pieces of plaster prata .
as usual, my boyfriend is always the first to finish his food
and as usual he will have a smoke after his food .
he gave me a kiss (as what we agreed on before he smoke) .

for the next whole paragraph , it's directed by mrkevin ,
put a round of the loudest applause to him !

"So my eyes were with him the moment he walks out of the shop.The way he walks,the way he pulls out a cigarrete from the box,the way he lights the cigarrete to the way he takes a puff really attracts me.I know that smoking is harmful and i want him to smoke no more but i cant help to look at the way he does it.He is like an idol to me,in fact he completes me!!!"

anyway , tomorrow working first half again but he's coming down to accompany me thru .
he's having his holis now !! hope he would really not mind spending most of his days with me !
hmm , wanted to take full actually but it seems that the pay is more important to them
then it is for me , so it's ok then .
fri having my stupid eng oral ! kill me ! hate it man . stuck with education , totally sucks .
sat finally able to beach , next wed i would give up anything jus to beach whether it is with him only or not !!

will find a day soon to finally have all the things i wanted to blog down done .

Thursday, August 6, 2009

thanks everybody for all the effort for my bday !
soooo many things to blog , so little time .
gtg .

stupid batman ! asses manoooocho !
see you .

gtg head out with my sis already ,
she's getting impatient cos im taking forever , forever !
hahahs .

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

shirley , i update for you ok . my blog's not dead !!

updated !*

hahahs . will update soon la guys ! =]

Sunday, July 12, 2009

so long havent update !!
my stud cannot change yet ! and i dare not change it myself !
oh gosh , so weird nowadays , see lotsa of my exs !
even played vball with one !! sooo bloody weird and awkward !

anyway , recently , many things went on .
sat stayed overnight at the beach , here's pics of it first .

all of us drunk and high for the last time with meng .

tues paktor-in for me , as what mrkevin claim as .
but met up with nick and meng after movie though .

then wed last beach with meng .
thurs night we had nice dinner at newyorknewyork !

omg , i cant remember what i did on fri .
i think i found a job that day and left my contact number .
the supervisor contacted me ,
asking me to go over for a interview
but i couldnt make it due to the rain
so shifted it to sun ,
but he jus jolly well told me that i can start work on mon
and the interviewing can be through a call or msn ,
i was super shocked !
no human in the world i know is this nice man !

but sat beaching again , without meng this time , all of us misses him !
asked my grandma to make half-boiled egg for breakfast for me , as i miss it sooo much .
all for the missing of it , i had diarrhoea the whole day .
thanks !
saw Haikel , my pri sch mate and exchanged number !

today woke up washed my bikini and had porridge with my grandma .
then head over to my parent's place .
i text ém a text of confession about my tatt and im tired of hiding it already .
mum got back and asked me to turn around to show her
and she labelled me á monster' ! fine , whatever !

tomorrow meeting up with haikel and guys !
then tues , meeting mrkevin !!
so sweet of him to want to accompany me for the interview . =] thanks !

soooo happy that i found a job sooo soon . =]

do the kinds of things
that come from the heart ,
when you do ,
you wont be envious ,
you wont be longing for
somebody else's things ,
on the contrary ,
you'll be overwhelmed
with what comes back .

Monday, July 6, 2009

went for the wedding ceremony that day
and then head to meet mr kevin in my dress and heels .
after that head to meet Jason to make that pic frame for meng !!
head to the beach and got all soooo fun !!

today met shermin for lunch at pastamania bugis junction
then head to vo check if i can change my naval stud but no .
so went to walk around and i saw a dress from topshop !!!!!!! argh !!
anyway , met mummy , daddy and my sister for movie and dinner!!

now heading home soon .

tomorrow pak tor-ing with mr kevin ,
ice age !! and then dinner . really missing him .

returned the found blackberry phone to the owner ,
got ferrero rocher in return , it's ok , was craving for chocs anyway . ahhahs

cant wait for tomorrow . buais !!

Friday, July 3, 2009

oooooh . 14 hours more to the wedding !! and to also see my dearest for the day .
thanks for the offer . you are really sweet !!

jus came back from dinner .
packet something small for him for tomorrow .
argh ! i ~~dont~~ miss him !!

baby !! i dare you not to bath and wait til tomorrow to hug me tight !
come on !!! give it to me !! =] muahahahs .

sooooo happening !
will update with pics on sun or mon !
here's all the wordings first .
soooo fun ! wed beach , wore my white shorts !!!
beach so much til yesterday , aching all over !!
met Mr. Kevin at 12 , Raffles then head to central .
LADIES & GENTLEMAN , for the first time , he's on time !
hahahs . but then keep disturbing me and bullying me for the whole day .
but whatever ! continue all the bullying and teasing please ,
better than ignorance take place .
anyway ,
met kevin , walked alittle from raffles to central then to esplanade to wait for jason
then had lunch again and walked from cityhall to bugis . here and there here and there !
done exploring whole singapore already !!
got friendship bands for our white group !!
then went to chill at Indo Chine , Wisma Atrium .
laughed alot and crap alot .
got forfeit again !! as usual !!
today , sent my resume out with Sweets' help .
hope i get the job !!
tomorrow got a wedding to attend ! gonna wear heels and white dress !
but have to carry my big bunch of stuff for the night .
but kevin offer to help me take my bag first .
tomorrow gotta take lotsa pics !! missing him already !!
gtg ! dinner time with parents !!

Monday, June 29, 2009

little miss red riding hood , gonna pack her bag tomorrow and leave ,
thanks for visiting and ruin my mood for almost a week .

ytd movie and dinner night with Mr.Kevin and J + A ,
transformer 2!!!!! loves it .
spent my last cash on Ajisen Ramen and CottonOn white dress !
anyway , tomorrow heading over to eve's place then night time to haji .
wed beach !!!!!! thurs and fri no plans yet . sat , as usual , beaching day .
but this sat , it's a special one , we're celebrating for meng ! he's getting into ns very soon !

argh !! i cant wait for wed !
finally i can wear my white shorts !!

craving for a hug from somebody dear !

Thursday, June 25, 2009

ytd went beaching , E joined too .
was happy til her bf interupted .
totally messed up night .
my menses came !
made me cried .
stupid stupid stupid .

meet my family today .
had this for lunch tgt with my mum and sis
while waiting for daddy to finish his work .

mummy bought me 2 shorts from CottonOn !
a light and a dark colour one . loves them !!!
next on the wishlist is my white dress !!

so happy . tomorrow meeting him at 11am !!
as he's having his prac lesson .
then go for lunch , maybe with J
and head back to his place as he have school work to finish up .
at night having bbq with him , M , N and maybe E .
then stayin overnight !! and head to beach tgt . =]
sun movie date with him !! yea yea .

gonna have chix rice and green curry for dinner now .
loves today family day !!

Monday, June 22, 2009

1806 , i mark the date ! where the rainbow appears .

wanna be a super good gf .

wanna put in more effort than any of my other relationship .

love his mum !

dinner was good .

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Thursday, June 11, 2009

oooh la la . today laughed like mad .
met E then beach again with J , K and M .
i THINK im improving . hahhas .
anyway , left at 6.30 to go shower
as E gotta rush for her forced-to-do .
so sent her to serangoon
so then we can take the new train ride !
then to transfer to amk .
but upon reaching bishan ,
she called and said that it's not today ,
so wasted !
we could have stayed longer at the beach
and have dinner tgt too !
picked AM from her work
and she introduced us
a new but stink shit experience !
chou dou fu !!
which J totally dislike it to the very cells of his body .
poor guy , we suggested to play 007
but ended up he got forfeit
and gotta eat a piece of it .
felt disgusted and covered his nostrils
and many a times of urge of vomiting .
sorry to made you stayed for supper !
tomorrow another exciting a day ,
a big group gathering !!
but for someone last week holi too . soooo silly .

nights .

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

am gonna forget about it .
if they have this kinda mindset about the whole thing ,
they wanna over-react , let 'em be .
i shall just enjoy my life and do whatever that make me happy .
quarrel alittle now and then . hais .

my luck have changed !
i bought the red bag !! loves !!

and a top from victoriajomo too .

then bought that tempting shorts from topshop .
loving all of 'em .

ytd went beach with E and J and K and M,
sooo much fun .

prettty wasted that AM and H ,
both cant make it for ytd and tomorrow !!
took lotsa pics this days .

ytd rushed to esplanade to watch J's friend from choir sing .
then all the laughing again .

today went on a mission !!
to go on a shopping trip to all the shops that are on sales
or all those that we favour
but not to spend any single cent on any of 'em .
M cant join us .
J was tempted to skip school , muahahs . sorry~ but thanks !
had claypot rice for lunch .
and totally had lotsa fun today ,
laughing over everything and steamboat dinner .
hahahs .

anyway ,
K bet on who's reaching first with 60cents icecream ,
out of fun , i agreed and he was late
plus asked me to wait for another 20mins when i reached cityhall ,
so i jokingly say that he owes me 20mins of his life
and he said he would pay it back but by installments ,
cant pay back in a day .
my reply was that
'as you know paying by installments , charges of gst is applied'
he asked me what's my rates then and give him discount . arent we friends come on .
so , ' 4% . quite gd enough already .
so if it's 5times ,
each time is 16mins ,
at the end ya paying 80mins of ya life in total .
hahas .
so if ya ok with it ,
please sign at the dotted line below .
_ _ _ _ '
but he insisted of signing on my forehead ,
so i suggested invisible ink ! hahahs .

then went over to meet A , my best friend .
talked alittle .
and found out that when we broke up back then ,
he took all the stuff he got for me ,
was my uncle's idea . omfg . pissed . though it's over but fuck !
not pitying for the tons of stuff but about the idea that it's from him !
what the bloody fuck is that man ?!
guess , you really seriously cant trust anyone in the world .

anyway , tomorrow cabbing to E's place then meeting J at sengkang platform .
BBBBEEEEEEAAAACCCCCHHHHHIIIIIIINNNNGGGG day !
K and i bet again , on who's gonna reach first .
60cents icecream again !
him and all his cents bet !! hahahs .
tomorrow might be meeting AM for supper i guess .

and sat , beach again . lovies dovies .

cant wait for tomorrow .
needa go sleep now !
gotta get up at 8am , again !
nights !

Sunday, June 7, 2009

argh ! still totally thinkin about it .

anyways ,
really tired .

cotton on , here i come , soon !
i want a new bikini too !

and that red bag !! gone !!
pretty bad day for me .

i miss BBBBBEEEEEAAAAACCCCHHHHIIIINNNNNGGGG
already . only that !

not happy !!!!!
argh !!!!

Saturday, June 6, 2009

victoriajomo , no47 haji lane

beach , i love you ! see you this coming tues !
i think i have release the string .
i no longer wanna care that much anymore .
now , officially , automatically ,
me time have taken over place !
pissed !
no one sees my side of the story so let it be !

for karen !

asking me to pick a card and think about it ,
without him touching the card or seeing what i've picked
and look at his wrist , that's the alphabet of the card i picked !
it really look like he burned it on his wrist . =]

glad to know him and that he is our guest artiste , Jimmy Toge .
lotsa magic shown to us too .

anyway , this coming tues ,
im going beaching !
loves it !

Monday, June 1, 2009

anyway , here's a pic of ryan at his b'day .

loves him !
so grown up now already .
cant carry him up for long anymore .

and bought this top today !
ytd i mean .

( not a clear one )

took this pic on the way to the shop .

everywhere is having gss !
for the whole of June !!
argh ! how to save money like that !
hais .

later meeting HP , i guess .
then after that meeting Marshmallow !
gonna acc her for her pedicure !
heard from K that outram park's not bad .

hais .
sat is coming !
anyway , made a new friend ytd .
(his customer's friend . hees .)
pics to be updated soon by this thurs or fri . =]
loving my fringe , my naval piercg & my tatts more !

hmm , i feel like going thai again ! (instead)
honestly , afraid of the swine flu that killed 99ppl so far .
5 cases of h1n1 in sg within a week ,
what else wouldnt you expect from it !
think about it !
am not afraid of getting it ,
but just don wanna be quarantined !
or worst , die from it !

here comes my paranoi again !
all due to red riding hood again .

really addicted to my sims kingdom , ds game !

wanna start on gourmet chef soon !

and also , america's next top model

then , hell's kitchen and maybe picross .

GAMES !!!!!

bought a new top at club21bazaar .
now slightly happy ,
but looking forward for a new bikini ,
then seafood
and finally , ready to start Beeeeaaaacccchhhhiiinnnngggg !

ytd went east coast to have dinner ,
as usual , i only had red sea bass with sambal
then saw a new surf shop there , so went to take a look .
i saw the most cutest nicest bikini
which i think that i wanna get it straight after i saw it !!
but it's like $85 for the bikini set and $65 for the shorts
(or vice versa, whichever ! i want both of it !)
then , went off and ready to go to golf range with them
and guess what !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i saw Marshmallow !
we gave each other a big hug+squeezin of the cheeks and we gotta go .
til now , i stil think that i was dreaming .
it really make me feel that the world is small !!
thanks whoever that lead us to have dinner there and we bumped into each other !
ok , that's FATE . i guess .
misses her so much !

anyway , tomorrow meeting HP for K's pres shopping .
then wed night , K's bbq !
sat afternn , helping G , dinner time with daddy .
looking forward to sun !!

Thursday, May 28, 2009

NO SEAFOOOD & NO SHOPPING
it's killing me to the every living cells of my body !!!

though it's 2 weeks more at most !
and i've tolerated for 3 weeks .
but what gotta give ,
gotta give .
o fuck .
i really cant stand it anymore !!!

look at all this !

o fuckkkkk !
im dying !

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anyways , tomorrow's my aunt chalet ,
bet im gonna snack on whatever seafood ,
just alittle !!

cant wait for next wed !

suddenly ,
have the urge to go get my driving license .
=]
jus thinking about it*

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

this fri , aunt's chalet
sat , dinner with beachies
then maybe J's bbq with D .
next wed , K chalet .
june6 , helping G .
june10 , 98.7 at the beach !

so many things coming up , so happy .

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

met them last sat for dinner at carl's jr .
all those fun we all had ,
i will nvr forget them .

nowadays ,
down with flu !

anyway , did this up .

met W and Sz before meetin beaches . =]

gotta wait at least 2weeks more !
seafood , im reaching out to you soon .
and i shall have no mercy !!!!!!

Saturday, May 16, 2009

and here's last sat pics !

oooooooooooooh .
i want my beach vball routine !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
argh ........... freaking miss the beach !!
oh man ....
=[

the only good things now is that my tatts and piercing
are totally annoying me with the itchiness .
fish !!
but my stud is able to move alittle !
faster heal faster heal !

anyway , forget to post this little catty .

have nvr take pics with this top .

hmm , i still thinks that it look weird .

craving for sooo many things that i cannot eat now .
seafood !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and i want starbucks too .
oh man , i feel so miserable this whole week ,
and it will continue for at least a month .
but i will try to tolerate it ,
for the sake of good recovery of my piercing !!

T.T

anyway , tomorrow heading down to
marina square to hunt down shorts for my big ass !
and then to boon lay to find FX2 regarding my irritating hp prob .
i want Nokia E75 !

cost around 600-700 bucks for new set !

oh man .
and then , going Japan on July23rd with Joseph , Margaret and Chengyang !
Her b'day is 1day after mine !
so cool.

the only only only thing that im super looking forward to is beach !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

red riding hood took her basket of fruits and left !

mother's day was normal .

still got alittle tan from sat beach
tho i bought the sunblock and did apply !

marshmallow couldnt meet me ytd .
it's ok . there will be another day then .

mon , i was an extremist !

really fuckin pain !

and then ,

totally a fun mon !!
muahahahs .

but gonna miss the beach
and G going back indo soon . =[

Thursday, May 7, 2009

oh fcuk !
red riding hood is in the house !
yo yo , fcuk off .
argh !!

ytd had dinner with him at the shop next door .
forgotten to pic the main course
but here's the fruit salad yoghurt .

sunday , mother's day ,
not really celebrating it as grandpa not feeling well ,
so visitin him instead .
but gonna draw a card for mummy .

watched star trek today ,
no comments ,
that reddy girl is pulling my mood down down down !

but still lookin forward to sat !!
gonna get sunblock for sure .

tatt and piercing on mon !
J piercing her monroe tgt with my naval !
then gonna miss a month of beach , argh !

maybe next tues meetin marshmallow .

and oh ya , got this up .
drew it myself !!

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

la vita viva una volta

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

sunday

well spent weekends .
sun met WL around 7 ,
shopped for her clothing .
ate cafe cartel again .
chat til 11
then decide to join her
for Kbox with her colleagues .

monday
night went to his workplace
had Roti Kirai for dinner
and he had meehoon goreng seafood
together with gadogado
then helped them with colourin the hook

decided to BeachVBall every Sat as a routine !
i always love enjoying something i love .
esp when it's not done for a long time .

but gotta get sunblock ,
gotta protect my tatts .
might get a naval within this month !

(♥)

Saturday, May 2, 2009

woke up at 8.20am ,

first thing in my mind was reminding myself that i gotta bring vball ,
reached there 10mins earlier without the vball !!
so dumb !

they went to eat first then went to get mineral water .
vball today was better than last week as the weather was cooler ,
went down to the sea with A and the rest , finally !! =]
then ate pastamania for dinner !

later on , in the late afternoon ,
meeting WL again !!
hmm , cant wait .

hais , honestly , im not really happy today .
i donno how to describe it here .
now waiting for marshmallow to call me !!

Friday, May 1, 2009

so tired this few days ,

been helping out with the new shop .

last sat went beach ! finally , something that i adore loads .
A told me something that i really felt bad for .
she told me that i've already fly her 5 planes in total when i asked .
im really sorry , i didnt realised .

then sun met WL for dinner at Cafe Cartel ,
we chatted til the shop closed ,
starbucks closed , took last train
and even passed her own last bus home .
sorry to have made you take cab with our chitty chatty .

tomorrow , beach again !!
im gonna make it my routine ,
it's my way of relax and enjoyment !
next sat will be joinin them for dinner .

sun meetin WL in the late afternoon !
so happy that my weekends are being well spent .

hais , really stressed over with my studies !
it's killing me .

havent been catchin up with my family for 3wks or so .
all due to my lie of going thai .
i knew that they know about it .

and gotten myself a suicidal decision that i gotta live with .
trying to accept it .

(♥)

a few weeks back ,
passed ryan the stuff that i bought for him in thai .
he totally love it .
seein him so happy , i gave him 2big hugs .
really really delighted to see him . =]

Thursday, April 23, 2009

i packed the room !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and left to meet WL for dinner and walk at tm1 .
we chatted til 1+am !
for soooo long , i havent been spendin my time like that .
really enjoyed myself even it's jus normal chatting .
really hope that i could do this more !

Friday, April 10, 2009

this few days he rented car so we were out continuosly 4days with his friend and colleague .
tonight we gonna watch Fast&Furios4 at the cathay .
going back school soon .

marshmallow , waiting for ya sms or call after ya trip .
really hope you enjoy yaself there . =]

Sunday, April 5, 2009

thoughts about the trip had been occupied in my mind with all it's worth .
packed our bags the night before the exact day and slept for a few hours .
cab to budget terminal for our 2hrsflight , my second time on the plane .
ate alittle before the plane took off .

slept in the plane for around an hour and listened to my mp3 .

at the end of the river ,

love is what we found .

then he told me all about the air pressure about the plane .

got there and took a pink cab to the place we gonna stay at .

saw this two images while at the traffic lights

and this is how cramp it is in the cab .
our cab were alittle spacious

their lights

the car no.

booked in , put our stuff down , took a quick shower then went out !

our room

a fruit cart
those lovable sweet fruits were unforgettable
they are really much sweeter than ours .

we walked all day and night for the whole trip to everywhere
and cab to places far for more discoveries .

female muay thai
saw it while on our way to the four-face buddha
wasnt that much of violence of what those guys wanted so we left

then i fed the little elephant some bamboo after their prayers .
it's nostril was alittle wet and it kinda stink my hands alittle .

vegetable cart

corn ! look at those huge corns

it's so super duper humid and warm
so went to their swensen's to have ice cream !
the bill was only around sg$14 only !

some cute rectangular plant in the shopping centre

and here's this tuktuk who name himself or his own vehicle :"Mr.Thailand"

view from seat in tuktuk .

then we bought donuts , auntie anne
and some swt&sour flavoured popcorn to watch movie 'meat grinder'

and here's the special moment .

the big fat worm

and the small wormies

i really ate them

and this is the only insect he dare to eat .
i donno why . but what's wrong ,
i crave for them sometimes during our trip .

cricket and scorpion

i really really ate them . they jus taste crunchy , that's all !

i bought many clothings , necklaces , bangles and stuff back for my family .
and wanted to take a proper pic with my new bought top and necklace

then he candid me with his own camera

i turned around and went 'hey , you are irritating'

then i ignored him .

for mummy

this two for ryan

for benben

april

and for the three of us

last pic in thai

and back to SG

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met up my pri sch friends =]
loves !

cant wait for raudha to call me up for the house visit . =]

anyway , think meetin up with marshmallow soon .
i miss her and hope everything's well for her .
misses those times tgt .

Sunday, March 22, 2009

went loyang to buy his worms !
eeesh , he is so irriatating ,
actually im supposed to go on my own ,
but lucky me ,
his appt got postponed so we went tgt . hahhas .
then accompanied him to work today .
he's gonna finish real late tonight .
as always when both of us are more free
and intendin to plan for the rest of the night
after his supposed plan for the day
but there's always something cropping up .

but it's ok !
used to it . hahahs .

anyways , tomorrow im heading to beach for vball
with JC after sooo long !
but he's leaving the house with me
to book his last practical before his upcomin TP .

after beach , am meeting marshmallow for dessert at bugis !!
misses her *

tues evening , meetin up with MP , Q & K for catcing up .

then wednesday !!!! thailand !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

hmm , that day when he was off and cooked dinner for everyone .

asparagus with mushroom

abc soup

prawn with onion

steam cod fish

and he bought he a softie .

it's dooodolls .!

the day before , met my sis and cous ben .
came over to paradiz centre together ,
they wanna have sushi .

ytd morn , went to visit R at sgh tgt with aric.
really feel for him and his gf and family .
i know that he will recover ! he will !

then went to Qsw to find MP .
and drew this for fun .

big improvement already , ya !

today going back home for dinner .
hmm .....
hope to get to see Ryan !!

Sunday, March 15, 2009

today , accompanied him to work
and went to look at their new shop .
then went over to the IT show ,
didnt bought anything so decided to go eat ,
ate at ichiban bushi restaurant .

cant live without my Cha Soba

Our dessert !! Momo Peach !

love at first sight ,
even from the menu book .

It really look like peach ,
for goodness sake .

cab home and watched "Unexpected Access"
then "Incredible Tales" .

now blogging before we start to play left4dead . =]

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and almost forgotten to upload this pic
for that movie marathon day .

Saturday, March 14, 2009

ytd night event , Gothic Night .
was alittle off for me , i jus cant get myself into it .
but jus sat there til they are done tattooin .
hope this video below works .

after that we went circuit road to eat .

oooooh so bored .
today's plan is to go over find him
after his work and have fast food ,
havent been eating fast food for quite a time .
then movie !! maybe "He's Just Not That Into You" .

hais . the only thing to look for is the trip !!

Friday, March 13, 2009

he took off a few days back ,
we went to watch 2 movies within a day .
'Push' & 'Kungfu Chef' .
push wasnt that bad ,
quite cool with all the power users .

met marshmallow that day and we took a usual plan .
but we ate the soup spoon for late lunch cum early dinner .

really hope she find it ok , at least .

Friday, March 6, 2009

i've been sneaking up them
stealing the golden key at times
and always destroying the evidence
before any of them finds out .

i would really name myself
The Most Rebellious Kid Ever .

am going to thailand this month end on 25th-29th .
but lied to 'em that im going KL istead .

=P

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

came back from bintan a few days back
and ate pastamania for dinner
then watched my bloody valentine at ehub .

did my nails before leaving for bintan !!
something simple and nice ..

our resort

me unpacking in the room

personal pool

table for bbq

living room

before lunch time !

my lunch , sausage bun with
chilli con carne sauce and fries .

and to the beach !

bought left4dead xbox version ! totally love it .

Thursday, February 26, 2009

oh my oh my !!
so so so so excited !!
leaving for Bintan today !

AKALAZAM !
teleporting in progress....
reaching Bintan......
sorry , system error !
will be there in 2hrs time .....
so sit back , rest alittle and goodmorning !

hahahs , feeling alittle cookoo now ,
havent slept til now . too excited !

to be continue ....
update when im back !
stay tune .

and sorta jus finish watchin spirited away !

last night , the girl who leapt through time .

=]

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

5.39am .
jus finished watching "My Neighbour Totoro" .
soooooooooo cute !!! argh !!

i demand for a personal room of soot sprites & a Totoro !

my next movie will be ,
"Spirited Away"
&
"The Girl Who Leapt Through Time"

=] cant wait !

i think i made up my mind by enrolling o lvl at dhobyghaut's bmc .

ooooh bored !!!!

finally downloaded left4dead .
but abit scared to play . donno all the controls and stuff .
haiyo !

anyway , came by this website ,
totally cool .
http://www.kevseow.com/
check it out if ya want .

Friday, February 20, 2009

yest after his tp ,
we went to eat Manhattan Fish Market at whitesands ,
the service totally sucks ! and my aglio olio is too salty ,
even for myself a salt lover .
anyway , after my horrible lunch we head to Qsw .
and bought my top !!
so happy !
and had pizzahut delivered to us for dinner .

jus finished 2pieces of ytd leftover pieces ,
later going over gram's place for dinner .
think daddy gonna pass me my passport for my bintan trip .

maybe meetin marshmallow later after my dinner .
or tomorrow .

gosh , i am so sleepy . donno why i wake up kinda early jus now .

this coming mon , gonna meet Jon .

( yawn !!) i am gonna take a nap now .

Thursday, February 19, 2009

anyway , bought 2 new books today too .
namely , Lois Lowry Gathering Blue &
Mary E. Lyons Letters From A Slave Girl The Story Of Harriet Jacobs .

and tomorrow after his TP ,
he's gonna have lunch with me at Pasir Ris
then get back to work .

loves*

after i recieved the news about me not getting into ite ,

we had dinner at Tao's Restaurant , Paradiz Centre , Selegie Rd .
it was terrific . 7 course set dinner at $29.80 per pax .

Starters : Bacon & Mushroom Gratin

& Roasted Mushroom

Salads : Fruit Salad &
Prawn Roll With Pork Floss

Soups : Cream Of Mushroom
& Cream Of Pumpkin

Main Entrees : Marinated Lamb Cutlet
& Baked Atlantic Flounder With Cheese

Desserts : Creme Brulee
& Greentea Icecream

Beverages : Ice Rose Apple Tea
& Ice Summer Peach Tea

we were like so freaking full after it .
as all the food was at their best .
we planned to visit Tao's Restaurant every 2wks !

got a new cap a few days back !

(♥)

hmm , anyway , either later on or sat
having dinner with marshmallow .

next mon gonna hunt for private school with o lvl course .

lately , jus downloaded DjMaxFever psp ,
only tried out a few times as some of the files are corrupted .
and am hooked to a ds game ,
Professor Layton & The Curious Villagers .

(♥)

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

not going ite ,

and he's gonna get me my $38 top !!
yeahyeah , he said he would get me if im not gettin into ite !!
sooo very happy .

but bad news , im gonna take my o lvl , again .

hais .
nvm . i shall cherish all the good news first !
yeah yeah .
my $38 top .
if only it is not sold yet .

my lunch . cereal with yogurt .
(jus being random)

Monday, February 16, 2009

someone jus complement on my playlist ,

i know , i love it too !

we had NewYorkNewYork .

pizza and cheese fries .
then got home and rest .
played PC games tgt .

ytd was his nephew's b'day ,
went over to their chalet with him ,
ate alittle and the b'day cake too .
then got home for 2hrs
after buyin movie ticket to 'The Pink Panther 2' .
got home and made clock together by recyclin boring dvds .

last night , played his guitar hero til 3am then sleep .
pretty early already . hahahs .

anyway , tomorrow is such a .... day for me .
i donno how to describe it .
cos tomorrow i will be inform whether i get into any ite , which i hope that i dont .
tomorrow will be meetin marshmallow for lunch too .
hais , which means that tomorrow may or not be a good day .
and if bet with me that if tomorrow i don get into ite jus like i wish ,
he will buy me the $38 top that i saw at Qsw shpping centre !!!!
argh , i am soooooo nervous .

now im gonna play one round of guitar hero
tata~

Friday, February 13, 2009

foul mood !
everybody leave me alone !
especially guys .

*apologise that im so cranky now .
menses !!

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

she is my beloved tues date !!
met her around 3+ ,
she had mos burger ,
chat over it .
went for walks ,
or should say shopping !!
then had my lunch .

club sandwich

not so nice toast

bought this !

(♥)

gonna go for a bintan trip this feb27 !!!

Sunday, February 8, 2009

soooooooooooooo happy !!

meeting marshmallow tomorrow !!!!!
no plans yet , so far .

today havin dinner for the
last day of new yr with my dad side family .

movin back home soon .
gonna concentrate on my studies , seriously .

sooo tired nowadays .

(♥)
really loving my own playlist .

Friday, January 30, 2009

currently at my cous place .
spendin time . doing nothing actually .
lotsa pics but sooooo lazy to update and blog about this few days .
busy with cny and my school enrollment .
hmm . got lotsa things in mind .

anyway , tomorrow meeting marshmallow !!
finally .

and finally , created a playlist of songs for myself !!
loving it . all my fav kinda songs .
hope anyone readin my blog , really enjoy and appreciates it .

i hope i cant get into any ite , so i can retake my o lvl as a private candidate
and.... able to join aric and his colleagues to ang kor wat !!
where angelina jolie filmed her movie 'tomb raider' ......

soooooooooo bored .

Saturday, January 24, 2009

no m375or747 pro3575per at47titu357de o74f talkin .
how884 am i 647supp84866osed to not s76tay in, it's co75m647468plic573ated .
*jus remove the number if ya concerned .

Thursday, January 22, 2009

(♥)
the day before ,

when i got up i saw this .

went shoppin with HP
and bought a shorts ,
wanted skirt and a top for new yr .

i've recieved the long wanted msg !!!!

(♥)

The Soup Spoon's

roasted pumpkin soup & chix tikka(at the back)

cock-a-dood &thai chix verm sal .

and he bought for me a top ,

a necklace and heels .
(♥)

later on in the afternoon ,
getting my nails done . =]
cant wait .

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

last night he made me pancake !!

accompanied sis to pastamania .
she insist that .
before she head for her 3days2nights camp .

strawberry bavarese & chocolate mousse for dessert*

tomorrow gonna accompany HP
to shop for her new yr clothing .

hais .
everyday soooo bored !

Monday, January 19, 2009

boring day again .
went over to simei ite
to confirm about the system .
meet MP walked around alittle .
then got home and took alittle nap
before dinner start .

jus a borin day .
hopin for the msg .

Sunday, January 18, 2009

havent been updatin for almost 2wks .
been feelin sick&down this few days ,
my menses cramp esp
and havin weird dreams nightly .
jus now got up around 10+
with nosebleedin !

a day before the convention i had dinner at lerk thai .

hmm . got some photos from the tatt convention .

cute girl

paul booth

joseph

chris garver

jon-denn (twn)

and he bought this poster for me !!

and not to forget ,
roland ....

after the tatt convention ,
things happened .
nd if ya readin my blog .
im not angry with you .
i jus need to know what happened that day .
jus leave me a msg . hope that you will .

yesterday , went over to my aunt's place .
did alittle talkin then she dye my hair for me .
no more ugly blonde hair !

then played Wii with my cous .
he is sooooo adorable .
even asked me to stay over night with him .

a few days back , had fresh bulgoggi with him too .
he didnt like it in the end , and i knew it .

had some fun with my sis too .

nowadays , hooked to my psp again .
Loco Roco 2,
worms open warfare2
&
Tales of The World - Radiant Mythology.

Saturday, January 17, 2009

havent been updatin for a looooong time .
soon to be updated ****

Thursday, January 8, 2009

last night he cooked for me ,
baked cheesy chix fillet .

completed my psp game , Riviera The Promised Land
this mornin at 5+am . so so so so happy .
my 2nd completed rpg game .

hmm , so excited , later on i'll be inkin his finger ,
a smiley . =]
will be updatin pics of the tatt later on .

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

woke up and went to see the doc
regardin my eyes and also my tummyaches .
got home and sleep again .

woke up and went to da pao food for myslef
and drink tea at coffeebean .

i think i see a white bear in my tea .

hais .

boring day !

tomorrow event at 11pm .
whole day gonna sleep again .

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

2appt on sunday by my friends was canceled .

mon was home the whole day ,
alone in the room ,
using comp mostly
and watched the last episode of 'Little Nonya'

today went to meet S at qsw ,
chat with C at the smokin area
then had lunch 3 of us tgt .
she brought her trackpants for alter
then we head over to jurong west in a cab
(and here's a pic)

with her bro for her work stuff .
she helped me with my nails
then we chatted in a straight bus to clementi .

and not to forget our FIRST movie and beach night photos

afterwards i headed back to qsw
to meet him for dinner with C tgt at anchorpoint .

tomorrow before he head for work ,
gonna see a doc again
regardin my monster eyes and my tummyaches .
and then stay at home for the rest of the day .

thurs all the way til sun will be helpin out him
at sg first tatt convention .
gotta take lots lots pics .
tues accompanyin marshmallow to her checkup .
(♥)

Saturday, January 3, 2009

i went head over heels and nearly pulled the trigger .

never create another trouble with your own trouble *

Friday, January 2, 2009

met marshmallow . had pastamania for dinner .
waited for her friend J to came over ,
had Mango Sago for dessert together .
then watched movie . hanged out til 2am .

hmm , my life is full of ups&downs in a day .

am tired . and lost again .

jus as i thought things are turning better , it's worst again .

i need to make my decisions soon .

*When you stretch the truth , watch out for the snapback .

Thursday, January 1, 2009

yesterday , no movies with family
& no dinner with marshmallow .
so the whole day spent with my boy .
went to eat subway then catch IpMan .
came back and changed the hammies babies bedding .
played psp and nothing much .

slept around 4am and got up at 12+ jus now .

going off soon to meet marshmallow .
we're going walkwalk and pastamania !!!

tomorrow P comin down to discuss tatt .
sun Q comin down with L .

oooh . everyday seems so monotone .

hmmm .

*a smile is an inexpensive way to change your looks .

Wednesday, December 31, 2008

called my daddy when i got up

and asked whether do i have to hide my tatts
replied , up to me .

after changin , daddy came to pick me up .
then we head straight to uncle james' place .
we were the first to arrive .
my sis wanted to go to the swing ,
took a few pic over there .

can ya see the bear with love in it's hand , =]

went back and almost everyone was there
except our all-time fav uncle thomas who fell sick .
i was stormed by the very common question ,
does it hurt .
and i've been noddin my head for the rest of the day .
then pics again .

pulled my daddy in . hees .

tomorrow mayb catchin movie with my sis and parent
then meet marshmallow in the evenin for dinner !
we got lotsa to talk about again .
(♥)

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

guys are hard to befriend with .

i miss my sec sch life .
so fun , so much jokes
and the only worries are studying .

yesterday , woke up around 3+ and
had late lunch cum early dinner
at Lerk Thai , whitesands .
totally spiced up my day !

after eatin we went to get a new cage for the hammies .

got home and make a changed of the beddings and cage .
took a few pics of the babies .

resting

exploring trying to climb out

no more milk for them , tryin to get some water .

but crazy mummy ran around and trample on it .

time to take a nap !

after that i start to gaming again .
hooked to " Riviera ; The Promised Land ".
this are a few of the many cute character .

slept at 6 this morn .
woke up at 12+
and he started to disturb me again .
argh !
i wan my beauty sleep !

he went off at 2pm tp meet his pri. sch friends .
hais . he wont understand how i feel .

anyway , now is 4 ,
gotta call up my dad and ask where to meet .
later going to my dadyy's best buddies place for dinner
and all my daddy's best buddiesss will be there .
asked my daddy what should i wear and he replied casual .
i know that and rephrase my question ' mus i hide ?'
he replied up to me ! yeehaw !
i don have to hide anymore !
so so so happy . finally i can be myself .
lovies dovies .
hope the today goes well .

tomorrow evenin time meetin marshmallow to do her tatt .
fri both of us going shopping&goodfood !
(♥)

Monday, December 29, 2008

ooooh boring day !

this few days , sick .
sucky !

slept at 6am this morn
got up at 11am
used the comp all the way til 4pm
then went out to get petfood
packet food back

got home , went to check the hamster's babies .
AND...........
found out that the rat gave birth too !
to 7 babies , i think .

i dare not disturb it .
bring the male rat out and fill the food up .

a few days back , changed my fatfat bedding .
decided to take a pic of him .
but like finally , after many shots .

used the comp all the way til now , 8.30pm

tomorrow meeting A ,
she wanna go for a job hunt .
and i wan starbucks !

wed night havin dinner with my daddy's best buddiesss !

thurs meetin marshmallow !!!
fri , she wanna do tatt .
i sure let her hold my hand .
as it's her first tatt .
alittle worried for her .
(♥)

Saturday, December 27, 2008

GIG DAY !!

hmm , met my sis and
we cabbed to art museum
thinkin that it's there .
but , nope !
it's art house instead .

got there before it started .

bought last min tickets .

chopped on our passes .

gig lasted 12pm - 10pm ,
we left at 4pm .
i admit its my bad .
its too loud for me
and the first few band ,

besides the very first one ,
is totally turn off for me ,

screamo(s) not my type .
hurts my ears .

and nowadays ,
im not feeling well .
my eye , nose and toes .
gotta spare my ears . ^.^

after leavin ,
we went opp ,
Victoria Theatre .
to get drinks from
their vendin machine . =p
hahahs .
and took a few pics .

then we walked our way back
to raffle place mrt station .
the fun ended .
got home and KO !
felt like a sick person
wantin to have some fun .
got up at about 9 ,
went to the nearest SPC to get sandwich ,
didnt eat the whole day .
and then , got home ,
locked the door and KO again .
he packet chix rice for me
but i was unconcious
he knocked on the door like many times .
hahahs .

Monday, December 22, 2008

a whole of a tiring days adding up to a week .

woke up at 10am ,
he accompany me to the doc
to get my eye diagnosed .
had mac for brkfast tgt
then sent him to work
and head to vivo on the same cab .

got there , im like an hr late ,
sorry JC !

today was such a nice day ,
took pics !

went to visit marshmallow after beach at NUH ,
worried about her .
passed her Christmas pressie ,
accompanied her for alittle while .
*my first time sincerely wanting to visit someone at the hosp .
( i meant it )

text with liqun and asked her to plan for a meet-up soon .
askin her to invite anybody includin S
just as long as they are willing .

tomorrow really need to get my atm card done .
meetin mummy and sis for sales at downtown !

i am so tired~

Sunday, December 21, 2008

today was killing me !
slept around 3+ in the morn ,
got up at 6.30am ,
daddy came to fetch me ,
went over to my grandad's place
to pray to the ancestor then
had a small bowl of superb-ly sweet tang yuan .
went over to compass point ,
they ate lor mee .
head to tamp mall ,
got some grocery for christmas .
then they sent me home .

got home and knockout flat .

wanna catch Yesman again ,
but im a goner when i got into the room ,
the bed is my first priority for today .

woke up at around 5.30pm ,
changed and went over to meet him .
he got a house call appointment ,
wants me to accompany him .

my first time experiencin house call appt .

saw this at the lobby ,

that red comfort .

and finally ,
end my day with fisherman village's
German Potato Salad .

nowadays didnt really have any mood
but today was better .
so~

a few days back , met B and Hping + Mping .

hope that we can meet up soon again .*

gotta wake up at 9.30am later ,
he bringin me go visit doc later for my eye .
then head over for beach again with JC .
at night , meetin marshmallow and pass her xmas pressie .
hope she like it .

gonna take a long sleep on tues .

Christmas is coming !!!

Friday, December 19, 2008

im sorry ,
to the world .
just tired
and restless
no plans
nothing
a waste to live

i feel lost again .

Thursday, December 18, 2008

stayed over my cousies' place this 2nights .
had lotsa fun . especially scramble with her before sleepin .
nothing much to do this days .

hmm , another bored week passing by .

took lotsa photos tgt , durin our outings .

totally bored *

A kiss can be a comma , a question mark , or an exclamation mark .*

Thursday, December 11, 2008

oooh , woke up at around 12pm .
took the mrt with him then meet W at ps 7-11 .
we took a walk to VO .
and she did a tatt . after tatt , we had SUBWAY !
my sis then join me , the 3 of us went fareast ,
and as usual i splurge my money again .
bought a canvas and many clothins again .

took a pic with her too . =D

my legs are dead tired .
then went home and comp again .

tomorrow beaching !!!*

Monday, December 8, 2008

made my decision .
but still alittle suck .
it's not over yet .

anyway , spent lotsa time with my sis .
watched pretty lotsa movies in a week .

catch phrase : you cant spell families without lies .

you dont have to have super powers to be a great person !

anime movie . airbourne war . complicated k kids .

all this show are pretty worth watching .
to pass time especially .
but it's even better to watch with someone you love .

yesterday went ikea for meatballs .
hope she's happy for yesterday at least .

tomorrow gonna be a damn boring day .
last min W cancel our date .
no mani for me til donno when .
gonna wait for her confirmation .
which i jus feel that i don have to wait .

JC havent get back to me about Wed Beachin .
hais . donno what is he up to again .
always mia so suddenly and randomly .
hope he can make it , if not i gotta wait til next mon .

now is tues , 6.15am and i am not asleep yet .
P going off soon . and he cant make it for the last dinner .
i will go on his behalf . and furthermore , they are really nice .

oh so tired *
nights !

Friday, December 5, 2008

i havent come up with a conclusion yet .

i am still confused .

he is treatin me so nice !

hmm , 2days back , sent my sis back after
dinner together with marshmallow .
got home and had my granny's soup .

today , slept til 3+ ,
went to meet him at his workplace then went
to his friend's place for his daughter's 1st yr bday .
after that got home and photo-whorin again .

lost*

Thursday, December 4, 2008

hmm , my December is ruined .
i love it but the beginnin is gettin way too off .
so complicated i am feelin now .
it's like there's rain in a hot sunny day .

i gotta make a decision but both of it suck .

all of us are hurt now .

but he is still treating me so nicely .

it suck being me ,
seriously .

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

it is my fault , i dare to admit .
hate me then , if you must .

hangin on at chapter 14 paragraph 11 .
i will wait . relax , stay cool and be steady .

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

he found out .
im in deep fried shit .
i seriously feel like dying .
mayb its jus me that wanna ran away .
but what do i have now ?! nothing . totally nothing .
i wanna disappear . i only know how to ran away .
i hate myself for goodness sake .

sis , sorry for all the trouble but thanks .

emptiness filling me .

cant wait for next meetup with marshmAllow and W .

so very tired .
wan everything to stop .
mayb it's jus me too into my comfort zone .

i wan my gdnews !

Monday, December 1, 2008

slept at 5.30am this mrnin all the way til noon .
missed lunch with A .

met my sis around 4pm for alittle late lunch at pastamania .
catched a movie with her , wild child .

the show is actually damn cool .

she accompanied me to the pool alittle while .

tomorrow another happy day ,
going to the beach with JC ,
might have alittle surprise in the mrnin .

hmm , gonna watch an episode or two then sleep !

Sunday, November 30, 2008

pretty please , adore me *

i turned the job down .
meet my uncle for grocery shoppin .
went home for a short nap .
went to return my aunty her jackets .
got home and used the comp .

misses*

tonorrow going to the pool in the evenin .
tues gonna go beach with JC .
wed , pool again .
thurs meetin marshmallow for dinner ,
like finally !
fri undecided . nevertheless for weekends .

hmm . lotsa things to say , little time to express . heard an answer that made me glad . *

Saturday, November 29, 2008

i turned the job down .
jus got this feelin that i gotta to .

but am touched that they did somehow
or other accepted me despite my age .
really thanks , butt sorry !

hmm , got the job !! so happy about it . all i wanted !
starting tomorrow at 1pm .

buttcheeks , cathay , dhobyghaut , here i come !

anyway , today went for beach ,
was good in the beginnin but ends not the way i wanted .
nvm . not gonna go to the beach that much .

i've got a job ! i've got the job !

=p loves * i was happy once again in the end .

Friday, November 28, 2008

pls remember the agreement !

hmm , how nice it is to have someone to spend
alittle time with you even tiredness overwhelms ,
buy you a small supper to walk a short distance home ,
rides a few u-turns to make sure ya at least at the void deck
then go off .
how sweet it is ~

ate stingray and porridge jus now .
oh ya , most prob i will get the buttcheeks job !
so excited . gonna wait for their call !

tomorrow , BEACH DAY !
with A and S !!!
so very happy .
cant wait .
too excited to sleep !
gotta wake up at 9am though .

cant wait !! loves *

next thurs meetin marshmallow ,
gonna chat like nobody's business ,
take lotsa pics and have dinner+supper !

Thursday, November 27, 2008

jus finish watchin 'my sassy girl'
to anyone who watched it ,
have you think like how Jordon Roark think ?
she nvr really know what the meanin of destiny ,
yet she still thinks about destiny .
how destiny bring two persons tgt is unspeakable unbelievable .

have you ever thought to yourself at any point of ya life ,
whatever you do , is it destiny that brought you to make this decision ?

have you ever thought about whether any current guy or the guy
before him or the one before or whichever will be the everlasting one ?

have you thought of the people you jus accidentally bumped into
while walkin might be someone close to you in the long run ?

have you thought of how destiny would be ?

this is the only show that made me feel like that , indescribable .
this is the only show that features someone who thinks almost the same way as me .

sometimes what you think cant be yours , may end up yours .
sometimes what you think is yours , may end up not .
sometimes youthink that what you see now infront of you is a dream but it is not .
you jus gotta grasp any whatever opportunities that is there for you and live .

never put too much hope and never don't hope .

live happily , live the way you want it that to you one day will be of no regrets .

today was so happy !

anyway , made a date with W on dec .
sure will take pics with her too .
gonna accompany her do tatt then we ,
i manicure
&
she pedicure .
cant wait !

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

so many things to say ,
so little time to express .

hope next week our date is confirmed .
marshmAllow , i miss you !
hmm , cant wait for our meet up .
sure gotta take lotsa pics !

argh . so many things in heart .
donno who to tell to .
donno when's the right time .
donno whether is it right or wrong .

this few days been hangin ni the air alot .
went to asked for a vacancy at my most want to work place .
left me hangin in the air again .

hais . wonderin alot of things now !
argh !

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

had such fun . was so very happy .
didnt get so happy for so long .
indescribable .

Monday, November 24, 2008

tomorrow mayb meetin A .

Saturday, November 22, 2008

currently at his wrkin place .
bored ! waiting for my sis to call me so i can go pick her up .
argh ! she's like so slow la. omg !

hmm , lotsa things in mind but donno who to talk to .

bored !

today had dinner with my family at my anut's place .
she gave me a pair of heels . iloveher . feel so close again .
hais . so many things happened nowaday , im so sensitive .
feel so lost . really wan someone close to talk to .
i miss someone .
now i wish time pass even faster than fast !

i cant sleep .
and im starting to get sensitive again .
argh !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hate myself !

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

he got me angry again .
chat with A alittle while then watch anime .
uploaded pics , bloggin this post , gettin clothes on blogshop .
hais . so bored again .
later havin dinner with him together with his buddies .
sure drink alittle .

i wish the time could pass faster now .

Sunday, November 16, 2008

hmm , went for dips in the pool this
few days to think things through alittle .
glad to know A , nice and caring .
but gonna be away for 2wks due to reservist .
oh gosh . i love the pool on wkdays ,
kinda feel that it's totally mine only .
so glad my sis' companion ,
feel kinda bad that she gotta sit under the sun ,
relly glad to have her .
i might cool down already but still
am not sure to forgive him yet .
hais . exams over , bored to the toes .
my family saw my tattoo jus now , screamed at me .
feel kinda lost . like what's freaking wrong with tattoo ?
what's wrong with me workin ?
am i so worthless ? why do they always gotta think for thier own face .
aint i their daughter ? or is it that all probs lie on me ?
imisshim !

Friday, November 14, 2008

went to the pool today with my sis ,
chat with A . he's nice , that's all i can say .
hmm , after that went far east ,
actually wanna have Chippy for early dinner
but my stomach hurts . hais , so sad .
went home after that . tried on this :
havent wear it for so long ,
when's the right time to wear it man !

so bored .
nvm , shall play guitar hero !

tomorrow , grandpa's b'day .
stress whatcha gonna wear !

time pass so fast , yet so slow .
the person im missing , so far yet so near .

gosh , imisshim !

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

so bored . papers are over .
bet that it's a fail for me .
hais , gotta start lookin for jobs .

hmm , i miss him .

hais , everyday is bored !

i cut my finger just now and started to cry ,
as usual , actually .
but this time , i kept on thinkin why .

nvm .

gonna sleep and get fresh for tomorrow !

hmm , no anime for me to get hooked on .
nothing for me to do . psp outta game for me .
doing the same thing on the comp everyday .

hais , misses *

Sunday, November 9, 2008

i found out something that i didnt know .
hais .
anyway , after tues 10am , i am free !

ilovemyself( b).

hate liars , he better don lie .

Monday, November 3, 2008

back from genting !

tomorrow another paper .
hais .

anyway , woke up in the afternn
went to eat seafood at east coast , food village .
walked alittle at the jetty .
last min suggested to go swimmin .
so went home , packed some stuff ,
went to C's area , took an hr dip in the pool .

then bought a mattress ! finally something
attractively soft for me to try to love to stay at home .

genting was fun though it's the same old thing .
his family not bad , doesnt pinpoint me or anything

am so bored with life , exams is totally in my way .
hais . i want sushi !!!

game freak me !

totally into
DJMAX Portable - Clazziquai Edition
&
DJMAX portable 2

ilovethem ,
ilove my pets ,
ilove my tattoos
and most imptly ,
iloveHIM !

Thursday, October 30, 2008

jus wanna blog .
got home at 9.30am jus now after accounts paper .
it sucked . hais . i have another paper at2 later on .
hais .

but tonight , im going genting .
so so excited and tired !

last night , played with Mini .

totally love her !

gonna catch a nap .

Friday, October 24, 2008

finally , can rest , even a week , am satisfied .
only slept at 4+`5 , woke up at 7 .
got ready and went to do my maths paper .
i think outta 80 , 60 is the least .
to me , is kinda proud for me to be that confident .
as in , i didnt attend lessons for like 3months plus already .

when i finish my paper , went to the toilet to tidy myself up ,
lookin into the mirror , a pale face almost stressed out girl starin back .
time to get some sleep , is all that's in my mind .
got home , before i could do anything ,
he told me to go check out the microwave oven in the kitchen .
feeling something suspicious , went to investigate .

he actually made my fav melted cheese omelette with fav wafu salad ,
smiled like a retard all the way back to the room with it .
it was so random and unexpected ! so asked , he replied : "jus wan to be random ! "
so funny alright .

after that accompanied him to work , half shag .
visited my marshmallow , chat like there's no tomorrow ,
havent been visitin her for like almost 4days la .
after she finish work , she bought a top for me .

jus think its cute , somehow . like it alot though .
she bought two top for herself too .
tomorrow , going down to ehub for some worthy sales of wallet .
getting for her too , then go down visit her .

hmm , jus found out that in this world ,
never really thought that human would actually exist .
but somehow what happened , it's predictable , it kinda happened for me too .

whatever it is , what comes around , goes around .
she will get the worst in the end . i believe in karma .

nvm nvm . i like it when someone talk bad about me ,
it jus prove that they have nothing better to do then being childish ,
they never know how people actually look at them and
they jus continue their disgusting behaviour .

time to cool off and play my silent hill to relax .

Sunday, October 19, 2008

lazy and tired to update with words
so here are all the pics instead .

he bought a new cage for my three beloved .

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

he bought me 3hamsters

another wish came true .

Thursday, October 2, 2008

was totally bored the whole .
don wanna blog much abt today .
lotsa thing happened .

marshmallow , hope ya ok now .

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

hmm , had sushi this afternn .

went qsw after that then.........
and back from nightsafari 2+hrs ago.

before starting ,
we visited Dr. Fish

so freakin ticklish !

hmm , the sad thing was that it's night night safari .
this is all i could take .

porcupine

owls

some wolves

leopard

hais , something bad jus happened .
is it my fault ? i think im digging my own grave again .

tomorrow will be hangin out with
Marshmallow after her work ,
will be havin pastamania dinner with her .
it's been so long that we spend a long night tgt .

looking forward .

when's our next trip to the zoo ?
includin of my most fav place , butterfly kingdom !
thanks , i know you would plan it soon .

Monday, September 29, 2008

am home , bored to death .

ytd was fun though .
went underwater world with him .

had lotsa fun !
then went shopping and movie .
bought this, our personal cup .

so enjoy !
28/09/08

___________________________________

oh my ! cant stand stayin at home .
miss S , hope tomorrow night's plan will be on !
hahahs .

Thursday, September 18, 2008

S went to work today ,
had sushi then went down to Qsw .
chat with S alittle then gonna go off .
so took a quick pic .

my marshmallow seline !

see ya tomorrow .
we shall jus spend our er ren shi jie .
if ya readin this , you shud know what i mean .
hahahs .

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

met S at bugis village around 2.30pm
went walk alittle and i bought another
top , a cigg like pen and also another extra .

went ps , she got hungry .
had pastamania with her for early dinner ,
chat over it , found out that we kinda have
some similiar likes&dislikes then
brought her up to a job interview .
they were lookin for full timers & wkend part timers ,
totally suit both of us . =p

hmm , sent her to the traffic light .
happy that she didnt dropped today's date
but..................
i want my beach date , girl .
so get well soon !
tomorrow meetin her , for another interview .

see her !

Monday, September 15, 2008

i was so fcukin bored today ,
that i initiated to buy needed things .
went ps , called JC for help .
bought like lotsa of stuff ,
couldnt stand myself .

so happy ! tomorrow meetin her for the whole day , finally .
hahahahs . but really hope she's feelin well enough .
hmm , found a interesting job offer for both of us at ps .
hmm , really miss her . so glad can see her finally .

tomorrow , 2pm , bugis . dont drop date again please !

missie missie .....

Sunday, September 14, 2008

S not feeling well since the day before ,
the plan was cancelled ,
she couldnt make it to beach with me .

ooh , nvm .
there's another next mon ,
and i hope someone dont say the wrong thing .

am so bored today !
at v.o now ... so bored !!!

i wanna head out !

argh .

hmm , nvm .
anyway , i found out something .
whenever i look over my left shoulder in the mirror ,
i will ALWAYS think that i only have
my 4th tatt and not my 5th one .
hahahhs .
so not used to it .

hmm , went home last night to pick up my 10yr series ,
family was so quiet even though they're havin mahjong sessions .
they gave me money.
b4 i reached out my hand for it ,
i was jus wonderin ,
do i deserve their love when i hurt them so much .
so many things done but not much could be undo ,
they are makin me confuse themselves too .
sometimes i wonder am i really a burden ?
whether am i that bad of their family ?
i think i am at times ,
with tattoos , livin with a guy ,
with things that none of my family members,
no matter young or old would do or have done .
sometimes they make me feel that i've made them vanished in my life
at times they make me feel im invisible to them .
no more childhood memories that we used to have .
and i jus think it's all my fault .
no more mac brkfaast ,
no more late night supper ,
no more homemade dinner ,
no more scoldings ,
no more sharing of gd food or fruits with them,
not much more of movies ,
no more pastamania lunch or dinner ,
no more seein and hearin of my mum's fav dialogue :
'i ate $5 a day jus to have money for all of you ,
so you all must study hard and earn alot of money
next time to repay me .' whenever we go walkwalk or shoppin,
no more sayin of gdnites to them everynight ,
cant even greet them 'mummy' and 'papa' so often .
i miss them at times but yet wonders am i really in the fault .

wonders whether my aunt will tell my baby cous
which i dote on that im a bad cous to be with .

i miss my two terrrapins .

jus miss my old life at home with them .

feel lonely at times .
loneliness of the big distance with my family .

never understands !

hmm , ytd S wanted to take off but not approved !
so i went to accompany her , but she bombed me !
hahahhs . was jus a joke .
then i became her new stock model .
haiyo . but it was fun , and i pretty much like one
of it which he finds it kiddy , sadly .
whatever it is , it's my money and my own face to throw ,
i love it , who cares !

tomorrow heading to the beach with her ,
and her friend will be tagging along too .
so happy , more pics to upload tomorrow .
and i bet , i'll be as tan as i was b4 .
after beach , heading to S house to do my hair .
so appreciate it that she don mind .
really happy to know her ! such a nice girl !

Thursday, September 11, 2008

hmm , S took half day off today and we
head down to bugis and bought 2tops .
it was so fun to hang out with S , tomorrow
heading down queensway to
accompany and chit-chat with her .

*relationship are hard to understand , in general .
you'll nvr know when it's happy or sad ,
it changes so fast and whenever it likes jus like weather .

hmm , my school kinda sucky to me .
didnt attend school lessons for 1-2months ,
they don call but sent me a letter abt my attendance ,
how am i suppose to focus when everyone is so
unfriendly and narrow-minded over there .
nobody wanna be nice .
i jus don understand what is there that is fun .
i know studyin is the only one .
but how to study under this kinda insecure environment .
no books , no mood , no trustworthy understandin friends .

wouldnt it be better to work alone earn money
than be at school with sucky teachers and sucky environment ?

hmm , really hope o lvl finishes soon ,
i wanna rest and not care abt anything !
i mean anything ! everything !

so tired . to worry this and that but
ppl thinks that all my worries are unnecessary .
hmm , family is a prob too .
donno what the hell the world wants from me .
one moment expects things outta me
another moment , don even tell you abt their plan .
jus so fcukin irritated by the world .

i want big break !

jus hope for a little turnover .

inkin is so fcukin appreciated .
jus love the pain at some point of time .

wonders about what job would i pick up after
my wanted break when my o lvl is over .

Sunday, August 31, 2008

im not allowed to go to thai .
tomorrow prelim for me , so not focus .
am so sensitive nowadays .
he's at work now but here i am downloadin more games .
hmm , cant wait for my pay . gonna tidy up my messy hair
and get more clothing with S . =p

Saturday, August 23, 2008

wed is my appointment . wanna touch up my
love jar and add a fairy to my cherryblossoms .
may the fairy guide me thru life and obstacles . and ,
my little emo angel to spend all the emotional time tgt .
nvr will i be alone anymore .
maybe around sept19 that timin , may go thailand .
oh my , im so glad with what i have now .
especially , my bestest buddy , MP .

currently , at workin place , listenin to my chemical
romance the black parade . hmm , now then understand
why my sis love them that much .

will head back to beach with A after our Os ,
i wish her gd luck !
wonder how many people will stare at me with those
many tattoos i have now . izzit really an issue ?
really hope singaporeans can be more open-minded la .

tomorrow gotta work whole day
hmm , mon havin oral . oh my , im so not interested in it la .
i rather go school and spend that time with my bf havin lunch .
so not in the mood for school , am prepared to not do well .
cant help it but think about MP , hope she will do well and beat them (esp S) .
(fuck her man) hate her alot .
hmm , so bored ! psp no game for me to play le !
argh .

Friday, August 22, 2008

currently wokin at this time of today . bored !
hais . olvl oral this comin mon for me .
hmm . im tired . really tired .

Monday, August 18, 2008

and my b'day went well .

cried all my stress outta my brain .
going to sleep .
tomorrow gotta make a trip down to moe .
(to sue.....and complain....) hahahs , jk . make a payment only .

then gonna return dvd and rent more dvds hahhs .

im looking forward for wed and sun .
=p i miss them !

i backed out . thinkin that there's no distraction for me .
hmm , will get it this sun . promise !

Friday, August 15, 2008

have been busy .
worked today , from 3pm .
exams are coming !
hmm , went shopping with Marisha yesturday .
i miss botakjones ! and all my kind soul colleagues that i've worked with .

i want a full week of rest !
i cant take it . im so tired .
too many nights of horror shows and games .

so so so nervous about tomorrow .
i addin a fairy next to my flowers .
the thoughts of all that i wanted for so long , tomorrow !

definitely take a million pics of it and post it up tomorrow .
hmm , lovin it so much !

rest now !

Monday, July 21, 2008

last night my stomach hurts like hell .
luckily i fell back to sleep easily .
today sales was jus as low as normal bad sales days .
it was so freakin quiet and cold during work .
hmm , he changed his hp to the same as mine , LG KU990 VIEWTY .
ytd went to have diner with my dad's family
at swiss hotel . all the food was damn good ,
i had up to 30+ pieces of sashimi all tgt .
=p salad was nice too .

told daddy about the number i using and i'll be payin my own bills ,
he didnt disagree though knowin that im not staying with them too .
hmm , hope tomorrow sales isnt bad .
oh ya , and few days back , i think it's a sat , he bought me this .

my fav was this .

getting a full back next month ,
tidying my hair and more clothings of course !
hahahs .

Thursday, July 17, 2008

my parents came to visit me today
at work around the evening time .
my dad pat me on my head b4 leaving .]
i cried .
they say that they were ok with whatever i do ,
even if not stayin with my grandma too ,
as long as they know about my existence will do .
ilovemyparents !

so tired , gdnite .
will update more abt today , tomorrow .

Monday, July 7, 2008

today sales wasnt that bad as weekend .

he cooked

pasta and mussels with
mozzarella cheese , mayo and bacon pieces .

Friday, July 4, 2008

drew this at his shop ytd .

this few days , still not feeling well .
Not having enough rest due to too much of fun .

ytd he cooked barley and a nice meal for me .

went to sleep straight after food and my cold&flu remedy .

today 'skipped' school again .
helped out at his shop again .
and went laming....

tomorrow workin ,
headin to sleep now le .
=[ hais.

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

just had dinner with him .

stir fry pork with onion and leek

kailan with oyster sauce

miso soup with mussels , tofu and white mushrooms

and im still not feeling well .
juz had cold&flu remedy ,
headin to sleep now le .
tomorrow he's gonna wake up with me
and take train too , as he gotta go book his practical .

hais , so tired . nights

Friday, June 27, 2008

today sales wasnt as bad as usual .

he bought for me lunch , dessert and pizzas(RK's b'day) .

pizzas are my love too .
then after work , i got my tattoo .

this is the pic

durin the session

tomorrow mustnt wake up late le .
happy that meiping told me she would
be with me tomorrow the whole day at work .
i wont be bored to sleep , hahas .

hope next tues im off from work

Thursday, June 26, 2008

this three nights we've been eatin
a big bowl of fruits salad.
and tonight includes banana , honeydew ,
grape , papaya and pear .

so full !
tomorrow working jus like today ,
all the way til sun .

getting another tattoo after work tomorrow .
hahahs .

and i hate WH who causes A to come down
and create a fuss at my workplace that day .
i nearly lost my job .
i can lose anything except my job .
WH wasnt my friend anymore yet comes
and view my friendster and blog .
what was he fuckin tryin to do ...
so freakin pissed off....

o wadeva .
tomorrow is a better day .
hope tomorrow will be crowded
so my sales wouldnt be so low . ={
nighty night my precious blog .

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

happily workin and busy my life away .
hmm , had another quarrel in school again .
all this nonsense are seducin me to leave school
and to work this year away .
sometimes i juz wish to be a loner in school ,
it's better that way .

tomorrow am not attendin lesson again
meetin my sis when i get up .

missin my dad .
he saw my tAt and didnt say much .
last sun was father's day but i celebrated with him
on fri instead as i have to work on sun .
gave him a watch and he put it on straight away .
happy .....

Saturday, June 7, 2008

hmm , today sales was bad . almost everyday it is .
hmm , is it becos of me or the crowd ? hmm .
this comin monday after school at 7pm ,
will be gettin another tAt . hahahs , my third .
so excited . hmm , tired . mon back to school le .

nighty night .

Monday, June 2, 2008

so busy thinking of what i'm suppose to do without my black notebook .
tomorrow woking at tpy hub 4.30pm . Al will be pickin me up .
wed-sun , i'll be alone at shop .
anybody who reads my post within this week ,
please come down queensway shopping centre #02-09 and increase my sales !
i'm worried that my lady boss K thinks that i'm like her part-timers
who mia and leaves the shop free to be rob and go skive .

i'm so worried , new stocks comin in .

Sunday, June 1, 2008

yesturday was my first day doing retailing .
sales was 120+ only .
around 9.30pm my lady boss , K ,
let me go off first as i gotta rush to my aunt's
place for my little cous b'day .
today by 4+ almost 5pm , sales was 130+ already .
so happy , i did it alone . hahahs .
nvm ......

im rushin home to rest . im so oh-tired !

tomorrow going down tpy hub to take my shirt for work .
hais . tues workin 4.30pm to around 10pm , tpy hub .
wed-sun queensway 11.30am - 9.30pm continuosly ,
and alone in the shop .

loves being busy !

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

hmm , its been long since i've updated my blog.
fired ..... oh boy .

but im doing good .
tattooed again . got two jobs at a time .
tomorrow going tpy hub for my first one .
this weekends , queensway shoppin centre for the other .
hmm , im so busy and im lovin it ! muahaha .

stress again .....

school is stressin me out bcs it's 5k a year !
oh my .......

going off again , for not long i guess .

=p loves tattoos !

Saturday, May 3, 2008

it's the end of time , somebody say bye bye
threw him away then go back .
a week ago , dumped by him .
asked for another chance .
put that trust back , still loving him , and agreed .
but only gotten back words that arent kept .
played out and never will return back .

think twice and gave him last chance ,
thinkin that i would really be loved .
disappointed and betrayed .*

Monday, April 7, 2008

M jus called today .
askin me abt my job n my pay .
i gotta go back work for 2weeks and
i'll be leavin .
i love the job but not the management .
tml or shud i say later on,
i'll b goin to the pool the whole day .
if he still bothers, he wil come .

am i suppose to really give up ?

Friday, April 4, 2008

with the key, in this cage,
i'm confused
whether to escape .
life aint fair
for all his rules
are only his rules .
i feel so stuck in deja vu .
so worried and hurt of this matter .
freaked out that this is happenin again .
my life and my choices is in my hand
but i cant bear to leave just like that .
love and precious moments in the beginning
that circular item doesnt belong to me
yet im willing to accept it,
all i get in return was violent and screams .
it is happenin again .
my love for him is fallin down the drain
with absolute no regrets fill my brain .
every single day passes with emptiness
but just daily routine i have to face .
the urge of getting another tattoo
to ease all the pain, increasingly filling me .

we've been quarrelin like nobody business . everyday .

he's been vulgar and i've been disappearin .

i tink i cant take it anymore . gonna 100% give up soon .

he's juz bein unreasonable egoistic and im unreasonably escaping .

.x.x.x.

Wednesday, April 2, 2008

he screamed at me again .
cant help but to force myself to try my best to love him anymore .
i cant take tis kinda relationship that pushin me too hard .
he gave me sumtin tt doesnt belong to me .
and worst, tt's the only ting he gave me .
no trust n he says the oppose .
tis is gettin unfair n no where for me .
he benefits, not me .
he wans me 2 report to him, answer his question and go his way .
it's not tt i cant do it . it's juz tt i don get anytin in return .

*deep inside the evil me, i wish someone would take me away .

Sunday, March 30, 2008

am broken n confused .
he left, for what he assumed of me .
................................
an expected ending outta a bad beginning .
couldn't help it but to skip work today .
need a police to catch an ex-convict ?
who's willing to be my police ?

love's bad n evil.

Saturday, March 8, 2008

hmm, i'm attached again.
dont wanna talk much bout him,
becos i think i that i'm still dreamin.....*

btw, work is sooo tiring.
been meetin him consecutively....

hmm, will b takin up my o lvl as a pc.
hope everytin goes well.

imisshim!

Sunday, March 2, 2008

life is amazin. it changes everyday. fast in fact.
sad happy frustratin irritatin tired lucky.
all kinda feelins u can get in a day.
one shud enjoy their life.
as in no matter how bad it gets.
at least u r stil alive.

ok, stop my crap.
i jus wann sum up now n end it wif.

im single n happy.
at last.

Thursday, February 21, 2008

startin wrk at 6.
lovelovelove my job!

after wrk, he'll b fetchin me den rush 2 tm 2 catch jumper..
wil b gettin instant noodle 4 dinner tonite..
tml wil b goin beach 4 vball! FINALLY!!
den 4 haf 2 leave le, so early la.

cant wait 2 start my wk today...
malcolmwrkin same shift as me today..
he's nice. but i mis jane!

*

Saturday, February 16, 2008

i started e job, BotakJones, Bedok 412 on monday, 11/02, 5-11.
am on job trainin til tues.
spent time wif bf on wed n thurs, 13-14/02.
back to work on fri.
yesturday was like looonng, 12-10pm.
reached home wif big blisters n brkin legs.

recieved my own name tag!
EC gaf me a surprise after wrk, but instead i surprised him.
SORRY, EC!
hmm, today attended a class at ceylon club.
it's a cricket club. BJ J's dad was like so so kind.
he sent us there.
met up wif BJ I. and special guest honour, Berney!!!
it's like wow wow wow! he's nice!
hmm, cant wait 4 mon, 6-11pm.

im lovin' the job sooo much.
nice cultural, nice people, nice customer and NICE job.
loves*

Saturday, February 9, 2008

new year's important 1st 3days had passed.
hmm, n im startin work tis comin mon.
at Botak Jones, Bedok 412.
hmm, will b gettin off on Wed n Thurs.
MoMo so gd, he gimme off on 2 days wen i ask for 1 only.
Thanks. n im not really workin long hours but late hours.
Sat havin a course n im gonna get a jab soon.
Im seriously so grateful tt he gimme the job,
i'll work so hard as it's kinda my 1st job.
N honestly excited abt it too.
Hmm, gonna start work,
work hard n work smart.
earn my 1st money n save, then spent it wif my beloved beb!
ilovehim.
he's gettin gd at pamperin me huh.
=p reali can feel tt he does put in effort, lotsa it!
THANKS!

loves*!

Thursday, January 24, 2008

last nite wen supper wif eng chuan.
reached home at 2am, watched ellen n tyra.
4+, he called n told me he reached home.
but surprisingly, he told me he left me a comment.
n even asked me whether i wanna stay over tonite.
so so so random!
we agreed tt later he gotta guide me for medusa.
i wanna master tt n trash all the guy's ass! muahahahaz~
tis afternoon half aslp n half awake, i pester myself 2 pack my clothin.
=p hees, weird me.

so happy, can c him soon!
and sat nite he's stayin over again..

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

he stayed over last nite,
watched tv til 2am. =X (nobody did)
bought brkfast for him tis mrnin.
and now wif him, near his place de lan shop.
n im stayin over tonite. =p
hees.
hmm, wun b seein him til sat unless he wants n ask.

loves*

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Sunday, January 20, 2008

im sick.

beb, thanks for takin care of me tis few days.
see u tml.
watch cj7 togethergether k.
hahahs/ loves!

Thursday, January 17, 2008

he was pissed off not like the rest.
for the sake of me.
ilovehim
we love games, cheese egg, almost all the same songs, vball, beach.
i haf him, he's mine.
dare 2 snatch from me means u're lookin
for the ultimate trouble, try me!

Wednesday, January 9, 2008

got into bishan retailing.
wen for interview ytd.
was obvious tt im not interested in it.
so will be appealin for office in any sch.
omg, life's tough. quarrelled wif daddy again.
wad the hell.... i didnt mean anytin at all la.
nvm........

hmm...............................

non-stop uncertain paranoid tinkin.

Monday, January 7, 2008

juz finish dinner wif my parents n did some grocery shoppin.
hais, i mis him ald.

Sunday, January 6, 2008

so happy about yesterday.but they freaking make us wait for 3hrs before start playing.but when going off, i chased after him and we had lotsa fun.lovies dovies him!!been staying over his place for quite sometime and i'm going home today, gonna miss him.hais, donno is today or tml or the following day then will noe which sch n course i'm going in to.but got confident that i'm goin to clementi ite.=p

can't wait to go back to my school days.

and get busy with school plus weekends packed up with sentosa volleyballing too.

Thursday, January 3, 2008

lovie dovies
wen for free movie ytd (avp2)
had supper, cheese egg n maggi goreng..

tml sat again.
sento! sento!
hmm, hope sun i can stay longer.

beb, u're the only one i trust and love!

Sunday, December 30, 2007

fcuk shit tt guy who hack my friendster acc.
fcuk his whole family. not happy, come talk to me face to face, im serious!
not sayin tt im talkin ahlian here, but jus b responsible instead of coward!
shitty asswipe!

Saturday, December 22, 2007

was stayin over at G's place like continuosly 4days n 3nites.
last nite was weird alone at hm. mis him, see him soon.
today alittle family day. tml goin back sch 2 sk more abt me studies ting.
hais. tml christmas eve le. i tink wil b spendin it wif G.

Thursday, December 20, 2007

life's been real bad.
lost my hp. get bad results.
fucked up life once again.
nvm! i can make it thru~
i can make my way to my goal.
if in the end anytin fails, i noe i've tried.
i noe i may have disappoint alot of ppl n myself too.
but i willing to stand up once more again.

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

though yesturday was kinda a bad day, no beach no entertainment.
hmm, but wen shopping n bought all tis.

hmm, watched 'tattooist ' too.
will b watchin it soon again.
loves it. feel like gettin cherry blossoms.
=p hmm, tink its nice, very nice.

hmm, will be lookin for a tattooist who's good at it.
hais, so sad. no beach today again. mayb tml.
but weekends is super confirm.
hmm, cant wait for tml or sat n sun.
so glad tt gu is back la.
such a nice fren i have.

hmm, tink am givin up the love tt i cant have.

sinlge n not available again.

Monday, December 10, 2007

confused. stil shocked. irritated. frustrated. angry. emotional.

life seems like in a total mess.
totally lost n confused.

only one happy ting in my life.
It's Gu......and my sentosa frenz.
love them!

tings seems so complicated.
n worst.

Saturday, December 8, 2007

hmm, juz reached home from the photo-shootin.
hais. so so so tired. hmm, so excited! tml.......
pickin up GU! then headin to the beach!!
finally can see him le, it's been a month alr!

so tired.
nites

Friday, December 7, 2007

ytd was my cous b'day.
we celebrated at changi airpot t2 fish&co.
it was like so fun, the way they help us celebrate along.

hais, hapi moments pass so fast.
hmm, today gonna go cam-whorin wif my cous at cityhall area.
mayb meetin AZ or D. i donno. they got me confused n lost.

nvm, tink abt all the beauty tt remains.

tml is another hapi day.
GU! is comin back!
i am waitin for his news.

i'll be welcomin him back to s'pore.
and we'll head to the beach after he's back.
miss him so much!
such a nice fren i have.

hmm, btw.
life's complicated,
don complicates it more.

Thursday, December 6, 2007

Love the beach like everytin!

hmm... dreamt of an old ahma ghost hauntin
the whole s'pore... made me even more tired!!!
hais.. havin flu n no appetite.... tis sat no sento
for me... next week perhaps...

=X hiddenlove

Monday, December 3, 2007

tt nite, it was really D*. shocked.
we chat n drank alittle.
the next day, he recalled AZ.
am shocked. shocked. shocked. shocked.
hais. hope it isnt true.
wen sento last min. had fun takin pics.
lotsa them.
today goin my uncle office wif my cous n sis.
hope tt it's fun. hais.

so confused~

Saturday, December 1, 2007

dreamt of a NICE guy n i really mean it, a nice guy.
and also of AZ. hmm.
yesturday reached hm at 11.45pm.
first itng was the sofa den changed n ready 2 sleep.
shag out, man! as i enjoyed myself at the beach!!!!
for dinner, seafood seafood! those guys treat me n Aml.
nice dinner so far i eva had!
hahahas! my vball improved! hapi hapi~
lookin forward fro the next sat!
n now..
today gonna go over my aunt's place for dinner like usual.
hmm. but unsually, my cous r comin along too. hmm.

mis!!!!

Thursday, November 29, 2007

so so so not used to livin here.
have sacrifice my nite life so my cous wun b so bored.

hais. it isnt i changed juz tt sometimes i wud like to
spend time wif my family instead.

i feel so lost last nite so called my oldfrenD* n chat
while AZ* is busy helpin XKK* (=p).
thanks D* for gettin my feelings rite.
fuck T*, i tink he kinda messsed up my life.

hais. today donno can c AZ* again not.

now juz woke up, goin catch a movie wif my cous n sis today.

wen wil i get my next tattoo drawin done?
i tink i am takin damn long workin on it.

cant wait for mon can spend more time wif AZ.

hmm. tml SENTO finally but cuG* not around!
hais, wen is he comin back?

how i wish AZ wud appear at sento again.
wif Lucky tis time.

i tink, i am, stil afraid.

Wednesday, November 28, 2007

last nite was like wow....fishin....
came back at 6.30am, slpet til 12.30...
hang out wif my cous n now stayin over..
gettin my next tattoo next week...
i'm lovin' it!

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

AZ, get well soon!
hais. tml doin touch up i tink.
gettin another one next week.
hais. sians.
cant wait for tis fri & sat!
fri will be goin out wif my sis+my 2fav cous.
n sat!!!! SENTOSA VOLLEYBALL!

Saturday, November 24, 2007

i wan tis.
really really. but.
its it too cliche or weird?
hais. mis AZ!

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

ytd was a bad day. hmm.
but wen shoppin n got tis :

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=p my new biki.
loves it.

hmm, today havin dinner wif parents den go
loyang dua pak gong to paipai wif AZ.
hais.

Sunday, November 18, 2007

ytd wen sentosa, damn sucky.
G not around. Sumone stole A hp. Den AMD at dere yaya.
haiyo. sians. how many more sad sat do i have to spend til G
comes back or AZ is free to come find me.
Hais, D is gettin pissed off wif me more n more.
but i wish tt i wouldnt have known him so i wun hurt him.

missing G n AZ.
totally borin!

tis is the ultimate change!

Monday, November 12, 2007

everybody stay tune to wednesday's blog. =p
am not myself anymore!

beachy me!

finally....... but tiz wed!!!!
hmm, lovin the beach n vball too much.

to b updated again.

Thursday, November 8, 2007

hmm, so long havent been updatin my blog.
been headin to the beach so so so often! lovin' it
hmm, gettin my fav wantin to get it on next wed.
stay tune for my next updated pic. =p

Thursday, November 1, 2007

woke up at 4+ in the afternoon.
wen 2 collect my shorts which i brought 2 alter.
was listenin 2 all my fav songs on the way.
wen over 2 my parents place again.
had dinner at hm so only join dem at cavana
n wen 2 get some fruits b4 headin hm.

missin him!

wil b headin 2 sentosa tml in the afternoon, wif DS n Z.

happy happy happy~

Wednesday, October 31, 2007

Ytd wen sentosa. Vballin.
Had dinner wif DS. So ful n satisfied wif e dinner.
Had a walk b4 goin off. Today woke up at 4pm.
Came over 2 my pasir ris place. Had dinner wif my LaoDou. =p
Fetched my mum. Create tis post n goin home.
Worryin tt DS doesnt haf enuf rest n time 4 his last assignment.

LOVES*

Monday, October 29, 2007

Finished my N levels. Waiting for my wonderful results.
Have confident that i'm passing.
Nowadays have been busy Sento-in away.
Loves the beach,man! Met lotsa nice and friendly people there.
Going start work soon. Hmm.
Holidays all the way til next year. So long!

Btw, am headin for the beach again tml around 12pm would be there.

Loves!

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

hate myself!

full stop. love the beach.

love my friend.

am startin to work soon.

gotta play like mad til den.

Thursday, October 11, 2007

lame

stop findin me, trouble!
get away...

hidden love =X

love love love.
sucks sucks sucks.

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

izzit fine for a prince to have two princess?
or is it juz me, my jealousy risin up?
went sentosa wif KO last sat, freakin enjoyed myself.
but got tan like only one side as i forget to get my hair tied up.
it's like wad a stupid ting to do la. wil get it tied up tml n sat.
now at my pasir ris home. feelin damn f-ed up.
after bloggin, goin TM wif my fav cous A, she wanna get a bikini too.
hmm. later at nite, is celebratin DA b'day. gonna wear nice nice n he pei he me.
thought that it's his b'day, i pei he him. hahas. so nice of him.
definitely gonna take pics n post post post.
don care wad mother father prob, juz take pic n upload cum post.
hate bein jealous, im gonna tink open n hid my jealousy.
make it big tt i am growin n maturin.
if not , people say im gettin more childish.

hurt like F.

hidden love =X for u is tough.

the love i want, is the love i can't have.

Sunday, October 7, 2007

hidden love

updating soon.

Friday, September 28, 2007

SH lend me his line. so thank u!
met AZ juz now wen pasir ris park, chit chat lotsa ghostly stuff.
now at KO house, they playin mahjong.
watched hostel part 2, damn lame n disgustin.
hmm.... tml got no plans. so sian.
wonderin wad r dere to do tml.
hmm, lotsa bo liao ppl asked me out juz now.
funny. =p
hmm........ soon........
monday n lvl liao...... so fast, havent go thru revision yet...
die liao lo..hais...

y is it tt life's lidat?
full or betrayals, liarsd and farked up ppl

my line have been cut off le.
by selfish parents of mine.
totally outta my mind tt i didnt return home yesturday nite.
was like wonderin wad wud happen wen i reach home later on.

envy my sister tt she's well treaten of.
am hopin tt time cud juz wind back to 3 yrs back n juz stop permanently.
coping wif life alone is difficult.
the feelin of bein treated like dirt and rubbish is unforgettable.
i noe wad past is past but it had left a scar tt may fade but will nvr go away.

tryin to love myself more is at the top of my to-do list everyday.

~smiles*
AZ left me a msg n comment, viewed my blog n tagged me.
happy tt he thought of me yesturday while i was unreachable.
but am feelin bad tt ididnt ven give him a call. *sorry

loves bball, signin off...

Thursday, September 27, 2007

yesturday nite was out wif AZ dey all to youthpark.
enjoyed watchin dem bladin and fun fun fun.
but i've gotten someone angry. *sorry
my line is cut off. havin a little emotional prob abt it n my family.
reali donno wad to do. life's complicated.
3days later jiu reali n lvl start le. i muz at least score 10points, at least it's the criteria.
=p really misses those pri sch days whr notin bothers me.

i am so confused now. wif everytin.
admit defeat tt im not as grown up as i tink.
but , life goes on.
and i noe tt im growin up everyday,
wif everyday's challenge, i'll mature.

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

he's irritating me again.

hais. am i really a good person?

if i am, i can't even replace anybody.

i can't even make u forget.

i can't even make u into consideration.

i am nothing and nobody.

love hurts as always and will always be.

n lvl coming le. am not prepared leh. scared to worry now only.

what am i thinkin? omg. hate myself.

i don't wanna get a negative answer for all my question that i so far asked.

~bball rox my life only. who gonna replace it? anybody?

Sunday, September 23, 2007

i am a bad ger. i didnt attend sch today.

last week was like only two days of sch for me.

am here at SH's house. n lvl is like next week n omg i am slackin.

someone please save me. last sat sentosa was cancelled.

WH was sick tt's y. but G seems not affected.

tink tt dere's no hope le. give up. hais. AZ b'day comin le.

donno wad present to give him leh.

hais........ hate myself.....

Monday, September 17, 2007

finally the stalker left me alone. am so happy n on track le.
missing gerald. he's a nice guy. hmm. and my happy apple too.
now at lan shop. so long nvr update liao. cant wait for tiz sat to come.
will be joinin gerald n friends to sentosa. wil b gettin a bikini as it's more proper.
hmm. cut my hair two days ago. haha. look like apple head. hees.
two weeks later is my maths, science n geog n lvl paper.
after tt jiu can relax n work part time le. so now muz study study study.

loves*

sorry gerald!

Monday, September 10, 2007

juz came back from some enjoyment wif my new
bunch of friends(gerald included especially)
enjoy enjoy.

muacks*

Friday, September 7, 2007

erm, was havin much fun after my eng

n lvl paper. but next month 1st week still havin paper.
hmm, will be savin lotsa money for many many tings.
i miss him*

lovies dovies smooches to him*

Monday, September 3, 2007

not bad, not bad...
today's chinese paper got confident!!!
tml social studies....
will be stressin n studyin at the same time...
cant wait for tml paper to finish den i'll be stress-free le..
wed paper is eng, tt's y..

missingU*

Saturday, September 1, 2007

consideration accessed.
progressing on it.

lovies dovies to all my friends.*

friends are better than anyting.
independent is a better choice though.

what happened, nothing is gonna be the same after it.

stop pretending that you're still the same.
there's so many reasons for you to be not.
fake love, izzit wrong to feel it?

aint sure.

juz quarrel again. i really want it to stop....
came back from his army open house, quarrel over there also.....
please someone take me away... i feel so trapped...
later..... will be fun....

Friday, August 31, 2007

my goodness. things are getting complicated now.
blame myself, so idiot for what!
haiyo. next week N lvl paper starts.
very nervous about it.
hmm. friendships fading away.
pathetic world that we're living in.
zuo hao ren, hen nan zuo*

Tuesday, August 28, 2007

stress to death!
next week n lvl starts.

my goodness...
hais. i wanna stop tings permanently!

Friday, August 24, 2007

yet another day of quarrelling.
i am so tired of it.
cant we juz stop?!
or should we juz end permanently?
i am so hurt.

juz finished my prelim paper three days ago.
result is damn disappointing.
hais. sucks sucks SUCKS.
hais. life is shit too.

Monday, August 20, 2007

had my maths prelim paper today..
expecting to score 70-75 for it..
hais.. tml accounts paper..
gotta study til cry again..
someone is angry with me, i really hope he doesnt..
i love him!

Saturday, August 18, 2007

my goodness.
have been so stress this few days..
having prelims.. study till cry..hais.. now really studying..
nothing is important than it..even him.. hais..
cant focus on other stuff le.. n lvl next month liao..
hais.. stress.. later evening going study for tml n tues test..
stress.. hate ppl bothering me even when they noe they shudnt..

Monday, August 13, 2007

what the hell...... today i could not wake up in the first place..
was talkin til late.... hais....
sick but bf didnt pei me go see doctor... bastard!!
buy for him lunch also never thank me..........
feel like im taken for granted....
sucks!!!!! didnt pei me, only know how to sleep sleep sleep...
kill him ar!

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Sunday, August 12, 2007

quarrel again... over one bible now....
hate it leh....... sickening pile of dung!!!
juz came back from aunt's place....
ate fried rice with bak ku teh soup....hees...
alrite la... luckily not so much dishes again....
and.................the dessert!!!!
pear(soaked with cinnamon n sweet syrup) with vanilla ice cream...
such a wonderful sweet dessert that end the day of bitterness......
whoever can make that dessert for me, MUACKZ!!!!!!!!!
hahas...jk......

gtg......
tml schooling... gotta drag my feet to sch again.....

Labels: shuts.....

hmmmmmmmmm..........
church today but only went for bible study....
hais............ quarrel.............
updating blog n friendster..... plus emailcashpro.....
so bored!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
later goin aunty veronica's place.....
feel like goin weiming's place for dinner instead....
ahte her, she don even remember my b'day.....
but yet she everytime force me adn my sister to finish all her dishes.....
it's not that it taste bad but we're real full after our own limits....
nevermind...... once in awhile only... it's tolerate-able.....

bible study thought abt true forgiveness...
but i cant even forgive him......

Labels: yet another day....

Saturday, August 11, 2007

hmm...
today damn pissed off...
grandma went out...
alone at home....
tv on, charging hp, fan on....
urging for a nice shower...
heater on, electricity tripped....
what the hell...............
tried turning them back, nothing happen....
no choice gotta call that bastard to come over to help....
he could not be on much assistant....
so i just went to bath first...in cold water.....COLD!!!
while bathing my grandma came back....
told her the situation.....
she called for electrician....
they came... and found out one of the powerpoint slight explosion...
hais.... gotta spend money....
after that went over to his house....
spend the whole day on comp... chatting... watching anime.....
now....going offline soon... and go home.....
tomorrow got church......going biblestudy only.....
hais!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

should i forgive him?

Friday, August 10, 2007

never have i thought it wud happen again.
totally speechless!
ridiculous shit.....
please someone, God or Satan,

take me away rite at tiz min!

Labels: heartache